I cant even watch a movie without getting frustrated 
Like I would definitely want to do what they are doing in the movie but nah lol I have to sit down here and waste my time
Like a little kid watching other kids play and have fun but all he can do is watch from a distanceā¦ 
you seem to put emotions in everything you do. Emotions matter but duking it with courage to sustain a routine is a feeling too.
without routine you will never understand your limits too. If you go to work and come back sleeping then you should give attention to only work, eat better and supplement whatever it needs to be above that then continue with the more energy you have to do one thing you want till you find your limit there too.
Managing that is better long run and exceptionally more fulfilling than putting 12 things you want to do and not feeling great.
You know,to do more is for people that feeling bad because of having a lot of energy not for those who have little. Those with little energy start with little things to do till they can do more and more and more.
lol I understand.
But I accepted that I can not do more than I can do right now and that because so I can do more in the future.
Donāt want to be in debt on myself in the future. indulging in excess right now and making him pay for it with even lower energy. Itās actually really worth it to come to a conclusion like that. I mean only if I had that I would be really fulfilled doing some things and not doing other things.
What people call āmustā do.
If my sentences makes sense of course because I am thinking in greek not in english.
Thats not what I mean
I already have a way to make my routine
You think I am not writing stuff down 24/7 if all i can do is think and write?
I have came up with insane stuff that i will definitely sell as a course
Routine is the easiest part
Gathering all the information and making it practical in a step by step process is the hardest, even more so than taking action and being consistent
Already tried, didnāt work. My job is soo boring all I can do is think think think. I think about my life, about what I will do next, my goals. Or I listen to stuff from youtube, books, etc.
Which as you know, causes me more suffering lol
Lately I have been trying to listen to just music and talk to people but it gets boring quickly too
I appreciate it and I donāt want to sound pessimistic but trust me bro
Like I swear. The exhaustion cannot be put into words
It makes me want to cry but I canāt for some reason.
so what conclusions we came here?
you have a plan or not or what is happening now?
Yeah man this is a struggle
Its so hard to do that
Because I knew i could do so much if i wasnt sick 
I dont know how to find satisfaction right now to actually come to terms with the fact that i am currently doing as much as i am capable of
Thats why I want to let go of everything and take a break, I donāt want to think about the future, about what I could be, about what Iām missing out on. I want to cease to exist and come back
I dont know honestly
so man ask yourself the question if you wanna solve it
why not make a subliminal that makes you find out what you truly have?
I know your thinking is outside the box but of course you should come to the acceptance that there is a box so you can be outside of it.
make it happen by all cost if thatās your mindset too. I mean itās better to be completely burnt out than to be inbetween. You will act wholeheartedly as you said
but those are just recommendation for a situation I can not solve-judge-measure by my standards.
So I am not of help here lol
What do you think could help me?
How to accept that all i can do for now is sit down and wait?
I want to stop learning for now but it scares me to let go of that lol
I will try though
Im gonna get out of my head and live more in the moment for now
Honestly thats a great thing I just said
I am gonna āgo with the flowā like dem kids my age say these days
I always saw it as a dumb thing but who woulda thought
But before I do that i actually need to learn how to do it soā¦ yeah
Hopefully I break the cycle
yeah yeah I understand.
thatās why I said to you then go to complete burn out. Maybe even destroy your head completely will make you value it. What I am saying is not to self destruct but to come to an end faster.
Itās really not of ill intend I done it many times just because I couldnāt stand situations I went to such extremes just so I get sick of it.
But itās not a recommendation to be made for sure. I can not take your responsibility and really this option is out for myself too. You can do it for once? twice? maybe if you lucky like me then thrice. But not at all sustainable and dangerous that only a fool would take that road.
So yeah there is no other thing for me. Just take all in consideration.
Also the fact that you got used to take a lot of informations makes you think there are more than you can handle options.
And thatās about it.
Okay well Ill see what I can do
What subliminals do you listen to? Or want to listen to?
me?
I test an Atreides subliminal
and a hypnodaddy subliminal called antivirus for brain. I had a past with hearing a lot of subliminals 2 years ago and want to delete them although I think they are already integrated in me.
You heard the story of a girl putting affirmations inside to steal your soul or to worship satan etc? I think she was called rose subliminals
Yea but i never cared
Why?
well I donāt trust any other subliminal maker any more or pushing an agenda of how things are supposed to go.
I liked hypnodaddy even though really slow at working and getting results because it was just general ideas not a whole package of stuff that you are āsupposedā to be.
So the paradigm with the girl putting evil affirmation is the extreme version of that. So thatās why I would prefer to make one of my own, put everything inside like body,psychology,mindset,stucture,knowledge etc. Not one part but a reinvention of what I am to my fullest potential if you may, like we said above not that i was thinking that when we talked.
And that is something a 12 year old that found out subliminals and thinks in those terms canāt really create nor know how.
But it is funny when you know someone is 12 year old kiddo and putts in ābecome alpha maleā subliminal. His affirmation will be that āall my friends like meā.
āandrew tate is my fanā
Xdd
Bro im gonna make a subliminal about billie eilish dating me 
wtf
the demonic girl? naaaaah
