Thanks for sharing that with us.
Some of our friends have suggested some of the mandala, which was interesting to me because as I read your reply (before reading their suggestions) the first thing that popped into my mind was the St. Michael’s mandala (BTW, you can find the mandalas on this thread: Sapien’s Instagram ). I’m not suggesting that you need the protection of Michael (although who couldn’t use a little of that good stuff, am I right?) but more along the lines of his sword cutting away your blocks, fears, worries, doubts and agreements which are getting in your way of your studying and the learning you want to be doing at this time. There are some famous depictions of him slaying a dragon (thought to be Satan). Think of him as “slaying” your personal demons.
Michael is also a healing archangel. As the leader of G-d’s forces (sometimes he’s call “the leader of G-d’s army,”) he also calls in and directs other divine beings as needed. So, that aspect of his energy through the mandala could be helpful to you.
I also like the recommendations of the Major Arcana/Tarot fields above. The Devil Reversed = on the verge of a personal break-through sounds perfect for you, doesn’t it?
And remember the Grand Canyon. Water flowing and flowing and flowing, always flowing, over the same rock. Continuously flowing. Now some might say that it’s just water flowing, nothing’s happening. Certainly nothing of any importance.
But you and I know that that simple flowing water is carving one of the wonders of the world.
Be the water. Keep flowing, Keep steadily moving forward, even if you have to flow around an obstacle or two. Keep flowing.