All of us can be odd in our own way; Usually loved by those who took the time to know us the most, and disliked by those who didn’t and knew us least. It happens.
@anon76664106 is right, self-love is very important, and what you need may be found inside you.
That said, life is full of surprises, so protect your core, but don’t close your doors. Hope you feel better.
so grateful for your replay guys @anon76664106 @Hyperion you makes me feel like i belong and cared for effortlessly which didn’t happen in my home & my surrounding environment …
i hope the inner tension in my heart will come to end soon i see hope in new field from maitreyafields
so much lovve for you 
thanks my lovely angel … you are right it will be good for me and you and hopfully for all
I really am having a hard time with my living circumstances. It just feels like constant tug of war between me and my mom and its really awful. Like, nothing ever works out good. Its one of those situations where you feel like you’ve exhausted every single way you’re willing to go at a particular situation and nothing works without compromising yourself in some way. It’s really complicated and hard to get specific about. Ugh. I know there’s reasons why I’m here and most relevant higher ways of looking at it that I’ve been able to theorize about and wrap my head around. It’s just difficult as heck and draining. I make it and use most relevant audios I can to help but it comes down to myself and how to go about things mostly, but this isnt easy in the slightest. I wish I could say more, it just kind of comes down to how I choose to live vs perceived how it “should” be. A lifelong pattern that’s been plaguing me. But it isnt one sided, I acknowledge her views and their validity but my choices are mine. Idk.
Wish me luck, hopefully this situation wont be relevant in a year or so and I’ll have moved out
–Edit-- Reading above helps because it’s not just me in similar circumstances. Different for sure, but a similar wave. I wish all here the best :) Self love really is huge and can be hard but one of the biggest lessons and healers out there
After releasing all sorts of trauma in the past few days, a happy side effect is that I don’t resent the world and people in general anymore. I feel more connected to people. But that’s not the interesting bit!
Although I’m still suffering from other emotional traumas, PEOPLE are nicer to me! Even the random cashier at any given takeaway place smiles at me. People who never used to pay any attention to me now ask me if I’m okay. My friends have become more open with me and mere acquaintances have said things like, “I’m always there if you need me”. The nurses who used to give me trouble have now started giving me a break and are actually offering to help me. Even the busy consultant took time out of his duty to ask me if I’m doing alright.
It’s quite nice and feels as if God himself has started to give me a break and I’m extremely grateful for it.
It’s what I wrote somewhere else, when you change the inside, the outside changes as a consequence :)
Also even though it’s not conscious, people react to others’ energy. You changed that and so they react differently.
Im happy for you!
May you have more deeper and meaningful connections my friend!
love is the answer bro
If someone’s been bullying you…
In my years of life, I’ve found that if one feels they are living in a hostile environment, the first thing they should do is remove themselves from that environment at all costs.
(First post here in this thread, so forgive me if I misunderstood the format and purpose of this thread.)
I have all kinds of self reflective thoughts as well on:
Most importantly, my main thoughts are how to create the necessary fields with Dreamy to address the above issues for individuals who truly want to change, and also for the collective good of humanity, as I realize individual cases are dependant on those individuals, first recognizing there’s a problem, and then wanting to change more than the pain of the ego.
Thank you for letting me share.
There is no such thing as “objective”. Because most of us humans are at the same level of consciousness, most of us perceive things in a certain way and this common perception is held to be “objective”. When you experience higher levels of consciousness, you perceive things differently. Which is “subjective” to you, but it’s the same reality.
Again no difference between “Objective” and “Subjective”. It’s all the same.
My two cents after tapping into deeper states of enlightenment while using ego dissolution.
Now back to human language:
From that realisation, we can say that the best morality for us is something that strengthens/fastens every human being’s realisation of this ultimate truth. And that I THINK would involve building a society that reduces suffering and not indulging in excesses.
This however is my ego’s interpretation of how that goal can be achieved and so it is most definitely flawed. Only a truly enlightened being who has undergone an ego death can give us the best morality that is suitable for our time and circumstances. That is my humble opinion.
Driven by anger, fear, anguish, impulse or irrational curiosity became self-destructive, cognitively dissonant, there was much kicking and screaming inside of me. Now I embrace the consequences. I am accepting another route, accepting my misdemeanor.
I always open this forum on impulse. Chiron in aquarius, wanting to ‘belong’ somewhere, also said to a sign falling on starseeds. It hurts even as I type this I’m getting emotional impulses, letting me know that I need to be not talking rn. I really got attached to this place when I saw the community and whatnot.Last thing I’ll be saying.
can you tell about this one
I’m really, REALLY thinking there’s a psychic entanglement thing going on around here, lol, because I really, REALLY think that an important connection and development was made.
Like, whoa. The proximity time-wise between the moment I had tonight and my finally saying what I wanted to say 2 days ago up there.
I attribute it to a combination of variables, honestly. Blueprint of life and other things, field related and not (but most certainly attributable to fields). A core wound on her end was opened up, talked about and hopefully healed, and a weird two way positive discourse was had. Maybe the impossible has been made possible finally, or, at least, a majorly important step towards good things was made.
Mind you this has been a 3 year long saga and has to do with like, possible ancestral/bloodline karma going from her dad to me and like has a whole tangled up web of stuff needing to be released, so if this is ACTUALLY going the way I’m thinking this is going…!
Seriously, if I hadn’t stumbled across Sapien Medicine… The gratitude is real. And the amazement as well. Man, I SO hope that the future is as good as my gut says it will be. It can be so easy to be blinded by the metaphorical smog that this world can so quickly engulf you in, but when you’re able to come out of it positively and actually FINALLY start seeing that all this isnt for nothing and such, it’s nice.
Thank you, Dreamweaver, Captain, Sam, Om, everyone on here - this really changes lives and is appreciated deeply by someone really trying to grasp the magnitude of the value of all the work and passion and research and resources and everything that is involved here in its actuality.
Angelblessings The simple things in life are the best things in life 
. Wishing you a beautiful end to your day xx
The deeper I go the more I lose. The more I lose the deeper I go. But in the end…no matter wherever I go or no matter whatever I see…this feeling is the feeling of transcending and being the demon within…Cuz what I see is simply the meaning of absolute nothingness.
If one had to choose the perfect life for himself then would he regret after choosing it? Would things be different if I were you and you were me? Would you see things as I see? Or would the world around you completely change? Or should we just be greatful for who we are? In the end…the reflection we see of each other is nothing but a reflection of mirror…we only see the reflection and nothing else…and everything looks beautiful from the outside isn’t it? Perhaps…I may never know the answer…but it’s always fun to be real isn’t it? That’s a question I ask myself very often…I guess only time itself will answer my question…however… undoubtedly I will surpass my own expectations…
I’ve heard from maybe 5+ people so far that since they’ve had covid, one of the lingering things they experience is a sudden onset of intense waves of unpleasant smell.
It would be something like rotten eggs or cigarette smoke, and bad/intense enough that they suddenly feel physically sick.
Some other people (2 or 3 so far) told me they couldn’t eat meat - one of them does now but couldnt for about 6 months -, as it just smelt and tasted completely disgusting and rotten after covid.
Now… My first thought after hearing about the smell is entities of course.
Even though I know that this virus can affect the brain, which in turn can affect sense of smell, so this is a logical possible side effect, my mind still goes to “entities”.
It makes me wonder about how skewed my way of thinking has gotten compared to the general public (i do not know anyone in real life who would make the same connection lol). It also makes me wonder whether I am just imagining things also in cases where the explanation is more mundane.