Should I think about and accept who I was?

[Tom]

Hi! This is gonna be my first and quite a long post. I am wondering if I should think about my past and accept it. One year ago I was a completely different person. I’ve went through a major change both physically and mentally., and became much better than in the past. I was playing much video games, watching porn and masturbating. I went from being fat, unhealthy, having low confidence to much better looking, feeling, and seeking to improve. I think it started because I had a crush on a girl in class. It motivated me to improve myself to kinda impress her, so I stumbled upon NoFap. After that II started eating healthier, exercising more and watching youtube self improvement videos. I also discoverd subliminals but at a time I wasn’t consistent. I had some traumas at home, before and in the process. After half a year school ended and I went to a new school. I was much better as a person. Than after first school term ender I found Sapien Medicine. I’ve listened to Teeth Regeneration and Hyper State Sleep for a 3 months daily. But I only noticed some results from Sleep Audio. Later the school year ended and I’ve listened to Point of No Return Stack for a month. I’m not sure if I felt any effects. Next month I started listening to Energy Coruse Audios but without doing the exercises. Recently I finished and I am listening for half a month to Subconscious Limits Dissolver while sleeping. Besides that I listen to Quadible Integrity and some Subliminals regarding subconscious. Some days ago I’ve added Concordia Booster to my stack. Now back to the main point. I think not accepting who I was, makes some blockages in me. Every time someone mentions how i was in the past or i see my old picture, I am afraid I might become like before so I look away and try to not think about it. I would like to know what are your thoughts on this. Any advice or suggestion is greatly appreciated.

PS: Also when someone talks about something negative like disease or operation I go somewhere else or ask them to stop. Maybe it also has something to do with not acccepting or fear.

• Tom

[Bronyraur]

@uial

Hi and welcome @Tom,

Overthink about it? No.

But take some time to process and accept it? Yes.

For many of us, there’s no really a way to move on before having fully integrated our past. Otherwise, it keeps popping up and spoils the rest. Mostly.

I didn’t take the Energy Course, so it would be much better to discuss with people enrolled, regarding which audios, etc. you should avoid or be cautious with.

However, I’d suggest that you go on for some more time with the rest of the No Return stack.

Some of the audios which have worked well for my friends calling themselves “anxiety/fear champs” (some we’re trying to avoid any discussion about diseases, war, etc.):

(no need to overload and use them all. See how it fits with you)

Stress Relief

Depression/Stress/Anxiety Relief (an older one… but has been even more effective for those persons)

Endocrine System Rejuvenation (again, for the aspects related to fear)

Self Love and Acceptance

Sacral and Base Chakra (Gumroad)

[Tom]

Thank you for your response! I’ll take your advice and try to accept it. Fear and anxiety audios might be good to dissolve my deeper/unconscious fears.

[Bronyraur]

You’re welcome. I’m sure you’ll succeed, seriously. You’ve already done so much, only in 1 year

[Bronyraur]

… but wait… here’s something coming from Samurai. Might be interesting as usual

[anon28389016]

That fear has nothing to do with you, its not real.

Read this very carefully ; Thoughtforms (apparently Michael the archangel was channeled for this).

Now, with sapiens fields, these two are the best for slaughtering those punks ;

-Subconscious limits
-Become whole

Another way, although a bit more “advanced” is this ;

Print higher self mandala, hold in left hand, then play ego dissolution and ask your higher self to wipe your memory of anything that doesnt serve you. (Thoughtforms are attached to certain pathways in your brain).

Warning ; Above method will make you cry, shake in pain, and feel really bad during the process. Afterwards you’ll feel like a god tho.

My point is, these thoughtforms arent “you”.

Not the real you. The real you would never harm itself, after all, what kind of moron puts his hand in fire on purpose…?

So the “you” that was doing all those bad habits, and was interacting with the world at that time (shy, insecure etc) wasnt you either.

Your reptilian side got the better of you, now its time for you to punish that bitch.

Read the link carefully.

[Bronyraur]

The guy is a hard rock star

[anon28389016]

No u

[Tom]

Thanks, I’ll read the link. I didn’t consciously notice my higher self yet but i’ll try the mandala. I’ve read somewhere here they work on black/white printers, hope they do.

[anon28389016]

@Tom

I’ve read somewhere here they work on black/white printers, hope they do.

They do, but that method isnt a must lol, thats just the fastest way and most painful, but works.

[lol]

Try meditation.

I know it sounds super cheesy and what not, but it genuine helps you be in the moment. Meditation helps stop your mind from wandering around without you noticing it. Your mind is constantly thinking of the past and the future, it never focuses on the now.

[Tom]

Sometimes I try focusing on breath while listening to audios. I think meditation holds a lot of benefits but I have to be more consitent. Also for some time now I’ve always tried to focus as much on present moment as possible. But I feel like I am sometimes focusing on focusing on now insted of on what’s happening

[uial]

@Tom

Next month I started listening to Energy Coruse Audios but without doing the exercises.

The Meditation audio field in the Energy Awakening Course is an excellent meditation aid for beginners!

@Maoshan_Wanderer

I am LOVING the Meditation track as well. As Dream pointed out, it seems to hit a sweet spot between Theta and Delta. Another thing I notice is the “awareness” during meditation as opposed to kind of like an absorbed or passive state - the state of effortless mindfulness. Unlike any other meditation audios by Sapien. My most favorite track so far!

[Tom]

Thank you for your input. I’ve tried Meditation Track a few times and I’m not sure if it helped me but I will try again

[Tom]

Also how can I ask my higher self to do that? Should I just say it in my mind because I can’t think conceptually yet.

[anon28389016]

Your higher self knows everything about you and every other “you” in other universes, all at the same time.

Its a fifth dimensional super-calculator lol, it also has acess to your subconscious info.

That desire you had to “change” was also very likely influenced by your higher self who probably got tired of your free will and decided to step in.

So yes, just ask, the intention is what matters, it knows.

Trust me, it knows everything, even the little perverted desires we all have deep down that are more of a primal/reptilian nature, it knows.

[Tom]

Thank you, your post helps me understand what is my higher self.

[uial]

You might try watching the video or reading the transcript for the Meditation lesson in the Energy Awakening course. (Section 3 Lesson 11)

Sam gives an excellent summary of meditation and basic tips and techniques, which can be used whilst you listen to the Meditation track.

Here’s a post by Sam on the forum:

@SammyG

I personally love the meditation audio. Has been helping me go deeper and deeper in my meditations… It really gets better and better the more you listen. Like I’ve said in the course though, try to meditate at the same time by focusing on your breathing and watching your beingness. The benefits that come from being conscious at that level will become so obvious after several weeks. You’ll see what I mean when you get there, just stay consistent with it.

@Tom

But I feel like I am sometimes focusing on focusing on now insted of on what’s happening

It’s common to feel or think you’re ‘not doing it correctly’.
Thoughts and feelings about focusing on the present and trying to meditate correctly often arise in meditation, particularly when one first begins meditating.

That’s fine and doesn’t mean you’re doing anything ‘wrong’. The feelings or thoughts are simply a part of your experience, a reflection of your mind.

It can take a bit of time and consistent practice to enter deeper meditative states if you’re new to meditation. Over time with consistent meditation, the ego will quiet more and more easily.

The Meditation audio is meant to take your brain to a very deep state and silence the ego as best as possible, which makes the difficulty of meditation much easier for anyone.

@Tom

I think meditation holds a lot of benefits but I have to be more consitent.

One thing you can try is to meditate for only 5 minutes daily, then increase the time by 5 minutes each week, or perhaps each month. The short duration can make consistent daily meditation a little less daunting.

If you ever have trouble meditating consistently after increasing the duration, you can shorten it once again. Consistent, short periods of meditation are often much more helpful than inconsistent, longer periods of meditation.

So perhaps try meditating to the Meditation audio for 5 minutes daily at first.

[Tom]

Just finished meditating and saw your post. I’ll rewatch the meditation video and I’ve already added meditation to my daily checklist. I’ll start with 10 minutes, I feel like i’m comfortable with that. Thank you for your answer.

[Tom]

I’ll also try the Ultimate Reiki - Star Exercise Meditation