Thank you both @anon73693188 and @Maoshan_Wanderer so much I’ll keep fighting, I need to for myself and my little girls.
I would love to pick yer brains some more but I dont want to be clogging up this thread with all my issues (sorry @mods)
Thanks for all the advice guys
I think I’m going to start from scratch with my stacks again and shorten them to be more focused on what I need right now, and hopefully find a bit more time to work actively to remove all of my blockages and get my energy back