Sometimes i wish n wonder

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#21

I ha no clue either, all this is happening to me for the second time in my life, these realisations and all. Maybe it’s VIC doing it’s job, maybe its cleansing of the old. Maybe @Mr.Nobody is right that im ready for the next step. Idk

Must be tough man. I’m at the age where i should also be taking some responsibilities, im 25. But i refuse. I’ve lost the urge to understand and empathise with my family. I just feel nothing. However, while writing this post yesterday, i felt everything lol. When i open up with my parents and try to improve our relationship and environment, things go good for awhile but soon enough they start taking advantage and try to mold me into their desired form. Then i get angry and have to retreat and close off. And then they enquire that why am i not talking, and not getting involved lol. I don’t wanna be closed off, i wanna be open, kind, loving to all. But for now I don’t have the capacity for it. All i want is to feel safe at home, which idk can happen (ofc it can but i dont wanna, it’s just something i dont want to pur effort into rn when i have my own life to set up ) or not . I mean i rarely felt safe at home, spent most of my time outside.

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#22

I understand dude, I got all the responsibilities of my family when I was 16, got kicked out of the house by my father, now I am 26.5.

I am so sorry to hear this, I hope things get better and your parents stop trying to change you, feel free to vent to me if you ever want to talk to someone or need someone to listen to you.

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#23

are you shielded and cut cords?

#24

Damn, one hell of a ride yeah? I’m also creeping up on 26, just another 4 months.

Thanks man, much appreciated. I wish you also find your peace, love and safety. My DM’s are always open. :handshake:

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#25

Shielded as in using the fields/tags etc? Nope. But ik ma kali has my back so never felt like needing a shield. Plus VOC.

I haven’t cut cords in a long time though. Might as well do that rn.

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#26

if you have her then you have everything my dude! :black_heart::black_heart::black_heart::black_heart::black_heart:

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#27

True that brother♥️

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#28

I had somewhat similiar experience.
All the trouble in my life began after finding out about manifestation etc.

Im ok now but I wonder why trouble began just then, sometimes I felt like it was “punishment” for using magic subliminals fields etc. I wanted to “quit” anything spiritual/manifestation related but you cant close your eyes after you opened them.

Stay strong brother, or rather allow yourself to be weak and ignorant for some time, take a break

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#29

glad to hear that.

I dont think it’s a punishment but rather at the moment when you start taking these things seriously, we are not establish in our true self yet. we are still juggling in between. One can only find true peace when they are completely established in the truth. That is my understanding and opinion.

yeah, it’s like morpheous warning Neo when offering him the choice between red and blue pill. and later
Neo says : I can’t go back now, can I?
Morpheous : No, but if you could, would you really want to ?

Thanks man, you too :handshake: for me, i think i’ll take a little break from all this.

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#30

There is no spoon

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#31

It is not the spoon that bends, but yourself.

:joy::joy:

#32

I think what you’ll find is that most people here in this forum can relate to what you’re saying. I am generalising and quite possibly wrong. But most of us are drawn to manifestation/subliminals/morphic fields/magic because of what we’ve been through?

If life were comfortable enough there’d be no reason to look for anything else or any other better reality.

At 25 life actually does get complicated emotionally. You’re still very young. When you’ve lived a difficult life as a child all these wounds tend to show up when you’re ready to heal them. Healing is an uncomfortable process. You have to process the pain. It’s the sub conscious becoming conscious.

“Until you make the unconscious conscious, It will direct your life and you will call it fate” Jung.

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#33

I agree & share the same opinion.

Mentally i feel like i’m in the post retirement stage :joy: :joy:

I agree & i’m fine with the release stage, I’ve been majorly focusing on healing for quite sometime now. It’s just i felt very tired because all of the chaos.

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