I (M) youth adult, have been struggling with feeling like I betrayed my purpose and contract with My goals. I’m looking for help in any way possible, to get out of the bottom of this, my main struggle is feeling out of sync just out of snc. I would love to work with a field, designed to reverse antipsychotic damage while also restoring function and clarity regarding how it obliterated my circadian rhythm sleep cycle when I got to a low dose which seemed to correlate with destructive ideas regarding investment of time, mind, etc as well as struggling to manage a difficult social and physical environment. I also missed on how to interpret pleasure due to its anhedonic affects combined with sleep loss. It obliterated my sleep because my strategy for how I handled stress, exercise, rest, etc was supposed to change at the certain dose but then got stuck when I stayed at the dose and couldn’t decide what to do. Leading to a total 
thus sleeping became weird because of not wanting to mess up circadian cycles. (My smartness got in my way). But this is also affected by my wanting to not accept the timeline and feeling like I need to go fix the past or time travel etc because of my perspective on deities and ideas that have been far and near within my life
Additionally, a field that may help with repairing psychic damage to the brain due to sleep loss combined with noise disturbances ( leads to feeling off about listening to anything while noise is awful for me)
Restoring a connection to sleep.
Restoring ability to make contracts.
Also I have a bunch of spiritual, bodily issues making it difficult to sort physical from spiritual alignment within body support systems. Regaining confidence with those systems especially in line with how I previously wanted them to function, and rebuilding social relationships.
Thank you so much
