Stuck in toxicity. Need a push through

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I need something that will help me push through life difficulties
Something that will speed up the change
Context:
I am stuck with a family member
Now that I live together with them I got to see their true colours
They are not a good person
They are very mean and cruel and full of prejudices
Their ego is very big
They are hateful towards all minorities
They are racist, classicist, ableist, heterosexist and much more
Their position in life is that they are actually better than others
Because they have an elite higher education
Because they have a wide range of skills and knowledge
Because they are white
Because they consider themselves on top of the social hierarchy
They are even hateful towards their own children and parents
They don’t have many friends as you could tell
I tried to explain why do I think their stance is cruel and unfair
They think they are entitled to their own opinion and life views
Which is indeed true
Fields do nothing for them
I came to accept that I won’t ever be able to change them
They were like this their whole lives
I accepted that even though there is some good in them
Even though they are actually nice towards me often
I can’t accept everything else about them, even though it doesn’t involve me directly (or maybe it does)
I have to play either repel negativity or shielding or salt cleanser or exorcism around them
And I must say it’s not a game changer still
They make me feel sick
When I am around them I feel poisoned
I feel like I’m getting stabbed
I want to vomit

And my intuition is literally begging me to isolate myself from them
I don’t have the means to remove myself from them right now
I’m in debt
I need something to help me push through
Some radical environmental change
Something that will speed up the process
Some fast forward
All I know and for all I care is that I must isolate myself from them
I then must help their children

I played these around them
Point of no return
Radical positive change
Radical emotional change
Trauma release and healing
Ego dissolution
Alchemical revision of childhood
Alchemical revision of trauma
Exorcism

And guess what?
Nothing
No-fucking-thing
I love their good part, the kind in them
But turned out it’s so fucking small
I need something bigger to protect me and to help to push through
So I will not be afraid
So I will not be alone in this pain

I can’t cry no more
I feel suicidal
This is the breaking point
Please give me advice guys
There is nowhere else where I could go with this

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Hm, I wonder if this is a cording issue? Have you tried cord cutting? For very strong bonds it is recommended not to “cut” the cord because that can be too harsh and traumatic. In that case the cord should be gently retracted and make sure the “hole” where it is retracted is filled in with your own soul energy. Soul restoration might help.

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Well theres a high change that you wont be able to change family member if hes/she not wanting to change.
Best guess is all shieldings, so like shielding 3.0 and dragon, repel negativity for like 1h, grand jealousy shielding, aura repair field too.

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Thank you.
I haven’t tried cord cutting.
My view on this is not even that they showed their true colours
I always knew them
It’s that that my own true colours changed with Sapien Medicine
And we are no longer compatible
I am no longer compatible with anyone of my family
And I no longer have friends due to it

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“They” really don’t like it if you ignore them.

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Does it mean I shouldn’t ignore them?

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No otherwise, when they throw their crap just completely ignore it.

They will stop or they start to rage.

You also could play vaikuntha-loka on your phone and just keep focus on the vibe from that field and going into “i don’t care” mode…

By interacting with their low-vibe stuff you keep playing the game unless one has a high awareness and doesn’t get drained by that.

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Thank you Bup.
There is something I can’t ignore though.
How they treat their children.
It sends me into rage.
Children can’t stand for themselves.
I won’t leave them.

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I see you didn’t played any environment fields which is something i would do.

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Please suggest me which to play.

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Assume it should be free right?

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Patreon has an Environmental Sevitor as well. So when you aren’t around or can’t play fields you will still have access to it.

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Yes please.

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Thank you.
Is it enough to have it on my phone opened as a picture?

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Yes. It’s enough for interaction. From there you can assign him the requests to be taken care of, for several hours at a time.

But also @Mr.Nobody will let you know of fields etc

This is just something to be closer to you 24/7 and on command

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Right. I forgot they are servitor rather than a field.
I will adopt them into my life.
Thank you Desiree.

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Radiate Positivity
White Light Waves

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I do use these in private.
But I haven’t tried to do so around them.
I will try.
Thank you.

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Desiree, I have a question about the environmental servitor.
I now have patreon subscription, but I will not be extending it further next month.
Will the servitor still work for me after I’m no longer a patron?
Thank you.

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Noo it’s designed to work only if you’re a patron but hey! It also works for the $1 tier!

Also maybe in few weeks from now with the next Patreon round, the environment will have become so much better that you won’t need the environment one! And can handle with free fields to maintain a good spirit inside your house!

(update: it doesn’t! Works for $4.5 and $22 tiers only)

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