I wanted to make a testimony for the cards as these guys are very dear to me, they have a VERY special place in my heart. It’s how I found SapienMed in the first place. I can’t remember what I was googling exactly but I ended up finding the Dreamweaver cards on instragram. Intrigued, I decided to use them because why the hell not? :P
WHERE I WAS AT PRIOR TO THE CARDS (click to expand for this long slice of life)
About 2-3 years ago I started seeing colours during meditation. Eventually I would see them whenever I closed my eyes (I can see them with my eyes open too but can tune them out for convenience). They were really pretty and made me happy. I initially thought it was a form of synesthesia because they would change and move when I’d listen to music but I came to realize that they changed to the feelings the music would elicit in me and not the music per say. Through trial and error and with insight gained during meditation, I came to understand that they represented my vibrational baseline. I asked for a name and Maestro is what came up.
At the time I was in a constant state of anaphylaxis, varying between grade II and III: throwing up 2x3 day/everyday and with the anaphylaxis came debilitating anxiety, but also pain and fatigue as well as poor cognitive abilities: I had trouble reading, writing and while I could converse, it was draining. As I mentioned in my introduction post, through studying where the science is at in terms of healing, I came to understand that beliefs deeply affect our biology. Beliefs are behind our thoughts and feelings and those provoke biochemical cascades that have immediate and long term effects on us (at the time I didn’t really know anything about manifestation, it came later). As such, I started actively working on changing beliefs to wholesome and functional ones and was seeing the positive effects it had on my health. I was feeling better overall and regained some freedom in my daily life. But it was slow.
About 1.5 years ago, I figured that when looking at Maestro and directing my attention to a body part that troubled me (or a symptom) a darker spot appeared, almost like smoke or an ink spill, and if I maintained focus with the intention of healing, the dark spot would fade and so would the issue.
That was amazing! It was lightning fast compared to my work on beliefs and I quickly regained much of my freedom and enjoyment of life. It was absolutely wonderful. By then I had started knowing about manifestation, energy, intuition, etc and I started getting great insights when doing shikantaza and experiencing synchronicities that were delightful, I was also receiving insight in the form of images and concepts. I felt free and that life was full of magical possibilities waiting for me to discover them.
That’s when I started experiencing what I can best describe as stomach cramps. They weren’t like any cramps I have ever had. A sort of buzzing that, while not hurting per say, was very incapacitating in its own way. It came with heavy brainfog and a weird buzzing in both my legs (it felt like I had a cell phone on vibrate in my shoes!). I also had intense body tension and erratic thoughts. It wasn’t like the anxiety I once had, more like tension, but it is the closest I can describe it. This usually happened as soon as I’d reach a state of no thoughts, or when falling asleep at night.
I had no idea what was going on. Meditation was an exercise in futility as I would spend the entire hour trying to relax to no avail, not even managing to belly breathe because of the body tension. When I stopped meditating it would go away, so in itself it wasn’t so bad. But this meant that I could no longer use Maestro. At the time, I thought it might be La Résistance! that had found a really crafty trick to keep me small and “safe” (I have since found out thanks to Conceptual Realization that that’s not what it was but that’s a story for another thread!). With the plethora of tricks I had acquired through the years, you’d think something would help but nothing made this budge. I sought help in various avenues, mainstream and otherwise and while I sometimes got a bit of relief for a few days, it would always come back, usually worse for a while. I slowly became to feel disempowered. Pain slowly came back and I fell into a very deep state of hopelessness and despondency. What was the point of going on? As I mentioned in another thread, I was alive but it wasn’t living. I was back spending my days trying to calculate how I could experience the least amount of pain possible, thinking of activities in terms of potential taxes rather than things to be enjoyed. Fear, once more, became my life companion. Only this time around I had no moral juice to keep it at bay nor to believe things might improve again. The candle of hope wasn’t snuffed out completely, otherwise I don’t think I would still be here. But it was very hard. However the bit of hope I still had lead me to keep looking for potential solutions and I eventually found the cards (or they found me!) YAY! :)
With the cards, I had enough respite from the stomach issues to start healing meditations again. 20 minutes was more than enough to get focused. Also, 20 minutes with less pain was enough to start doing things without feeling a sword of Damocles over my head. No more calculating activities in relation to pain because I was always a < cue to booming voice > PAIN CONTROL ACTIVATE! away from relief. This was huge! I started having hope again :)
After a while, I was able to use the sigils without the cards and eventually would simply align to the intention (on good days, other days I still needed to see the sigils). I could walk out the door strong in the knowing that I could will the pain away for another 20 minutes whenever needed. The freedom it restored! 
During that time I (of course!) started investigating where these wonderful cards came from, found the website and fell into this most wonderful of rabbit whole (typo intended) ^_^
I have since bought the book, more as a thank you because I don’t find myself using it as it’s more practical to use them in the PDF downloaded from Patreon on my laptop or cellphone.
So that’s the story of how I came to explore and love all things provided by Dreamweaver, Sam and you lovely people. I appreciate it all very deeply :) I have found a few interesting way to use the cards, which I’ll put together for another reply, another day.
but maybe others didnt.
I remember printed my healing sigil and the girl just looked at the picture