The Fruit series (Fruit of Knowledge + Fruition of the Mind)

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#86

Another thing,
I’m becoming more detached.

I can observe my thoughts and the layers behind them, the energy, beliefs attached to them, the patterns.

I’m not very stable mentally, sometime i get caught up and I try to let go instead of actually letting go. Then I just let it happen it flow and I come back.

I keep count, I got caught up for 30 min, I got caught up yesterday afternoon when my mind was drifting.

This happened, then I thought this and that and I ended up here. “yup, it’s OCD”. I think something and then I pause, « symptom of social isolation ».

Think something else and boom… « that was cognitive dissonance, that’s how it feels like », then it’s an habit, once this situation happen, it triggers my habit. Letting go of the past, not limiting what can happen in the future.

Today, I was having an inner monologue and I was like « who am I talking to ? ». I pause and looked around me.
Did I just spend 20 min talking alone in my head ?
Who is talking to who ? Who you think you are taking to ? Why ? :face_with_raised_eyebrow:

Another coping mechanism here and another one there. Ha ah ! You didn’t like it when someone did that and you just did the same thing without noticing.

Actually, that just an interpretation I chose a long time ago, I can still change my perspective.

Updating my mental models, intense sensation and mental homeostasis coming back with the feeling of normalcy. Cultural things, tons of biases and mental shortcuts.

My mind is playing this detective game on itself all day long, it also works on other people.
I’m not really trying, but my thought go through the microscope and ring bells.

I have done a poor job of taking care of my mind and body, never read the manual before lol

I kept the most personal stuff to myself ofc

Also, pretty much the same process, I detect things in other people and society, politics and economics, science, mathematics and everything else. Pause, that’s what’s going on.

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#87

Back in the end of July and throughout August I learned a bunch of stuff, I don’t think I wanted to know.

I had to ask Cap to check it, sadly it’s true.

I feel foolish and used,
I’ve been living a lie

I guess it’s all good up to a certain point,
not like I’m gonna stop now

But it’s the last review I make.

Sharing a last bit of emotion before letting the thread die lol

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#88

Well unknowingness can be a great protection(if you can’t take how things really are(i suppose there are many things i wouldn’t want to know until i reach complete conscious detachment from thought and emotion)) sometimes and knowledge os not for the light-hearted i suppose.

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#89

Not you, but your Ego man.
I believe you feel not that good only now, it’s just the “death” of a past life and the “beginning” of a new one, that will be way better than previous one

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#90

You got it,
I write retrospectively, the feeling is almost passed, I’m still excited about the whole thing

Good insight

Excited because now it’s gonna be better, feeling stupid for the past version of me

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#91

May I ask if this is related to global issues? Or is it personal? If it is global, then I am very curious and would like to ask.

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#92

It’s about the way the world works, not about a specific event

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#93

Spirituality? I would like to know too :+1:

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#94

I won’t be touching this with a ten foot pole and I’m not gonna tell anyone who doesn’t know already.

Not to keep it as a secret advantage but I’m not the right person to deal with the drama it will create.

Some subjects, you just don’t want to be close too

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#95

As a person who sympathizes strongly with your desire for total knowingness (esp about nature of reality), would you be willing to share? Even if just in PM with me and interested folks.

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#96

Without divulging any info is there is any practical advice you could give? Doesn’t have to be specific. Could be something as simple as be nicer or drink more water.

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#97

I understand. But I might know already lol. :)

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#98

Who seeks will always find.
It’s about being Ready and the right time for the person so it’s even better for “Us” to not know it from You maybe

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#99

lol I advise you to drink more water and be nicer.

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#100

Thanks! I drink a lot of water already though. Could be nicer.

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#101

idk I think some people have kink for ego death, so it might go over nicely. Anyway I shall leave you be now. I appreciate you sharing what you have alrelady in the thread :pray:

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#102

Yes,

Then you’d just have to take my words for it instead of experiencing it. It won’t work without the energy, concepts, realization.

I can’t prove anything

I’ll be making chicken little claims as far as you all will be concerned. Plus then the messenger gets tangled with the message and the repercussions.

If it was a easy talk, I would have spilled the bean already or in another thread

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#103

Just wanted to say that :point_up_2:
Knowledge without experience is useless

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#104

Stop messaging me in private people (about this I mean)

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#105

Everyone just enjoy the conversations that flow, everything worth knowing has to be experienced not read about.

So let the man have his say and trust his judgement when he withholds.

:v:

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