In full honesty, reading Taoâs testimonial I felt like I am wasting the potential of the Stand, because he/she is using it so diversely compared to me, one of co-creators of the project. I knew it is just a matter of perspective though, that I stopped relying on my own playfulness/creativity as a side effect of focusing on achieving x goals in physical world, big set backs I had to face, dissapointments, then dealing with them in healthy manner (sober from weed for over 30 days and life choosing to challenge me to keep letting go of that which just isnât for my highest good in this phase of life).
However let me say right now, using Max Human by PU+Stand and working with both actively utilizing different intents, has helped me level up and overcome the adversity, mature from each situation and just be closer and closer to the highest expression of my own being.
What this review is meant to cover, is personal experience regarding rave week ago, which I was really excited to go to in order to finally let myself be the good old, carefree goofey, ShadowHunter.
Context/Introduction to the events that took place on that night, from my perspective, for those interested is below:
Summary
As I am heading to the rave, I wear backpack with 1.5L of water, small bottle of rakija(alcoholic beverage) and non sugar version of ice coffee, pair of shorts,wallet and phone. There is entry fee which is considered a bit too pricey for people here and since I know water bottles offered to be bought there will be small as heck but pricey and simply I would need 50 euros at least for the night just to intake accumulatively, 1.5L of water(telling u those bottles they sell there are baby sized bottles)
I get there at 9:45pm, just to see that all the freely available tickets are reserved and I have to wait until 11 pm when they will sell entry tickets that were meant for someone else who didnt show up by 11.
So a bit of an hour left to wait, 37 tickets available and a lot of people that like me want to get in but didnt buy the ticket on time.
What followed is me realizing this is again, the Universe forcing upon me to let go yet again, of another earthly desire and be detached, which would only leave me with being attached to people close to me being fine, me being grateful that I have roof over my head and being healthy. I have been rarely socializing with close friends recently cuz of grinding, so yeah. Basically, I realized only things left are that I have food to eat, roof over my head and people that
Went to get pizza, then on way back to the rave, simplest way to say it is I completely embraced the situation and that I wonât be able to get in, this being my final obstacle towards transcending all which keeps me from working on my goals, but that I will still go there and fail knowing I at least tried.
Limit Break moment
It was at this moment of what you could describe as, a man who accepted his loss/missed opportunity wholeheartedly trusting the Universe it will turn out to be for the best in the long term⌠that an inspiration arised conceptually that I lack the ability to put in the words or name in dope anime manner as I usually would.
I intended the Stand to connect me to the conciusness of the year-older version of me who experienced same as I am experiencing right now, yet integrated the lesson/wisdom and basically guide my mind/body as a vehicle without my control, to perform/act without any attachment to the final outcome. In a way, I gave up freedom and surrendered, because I had nothing to lose.
Then as I keep driving my bike (yes all this contemplation is happening while I am driving), I play Max Human by PU focusing on simply Max Humaning this whole night and event situation, letting the music carry me while driving.
Getting in the rave
What follows are experiences that to me felt surreal, which are ordered in not any ordered necessarily, but just organised for the sake of readibility.
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- To keep this section short, I basically easily ended up in first row and only later noticed that I am literally in the freaking middle of the row, enjoying myself unlike ever before, while not being high (weed free for around 30 days, lost count lol). I am able to enjoy the music flow, while easily switching to my Virgo hyper awareness of surroundings, but not losing myself in it, if it makes sense. I spent majority of the night in first row, while taking breaks every hour or so,taking them when I felt the body needing them, it was like we were in perfect sync. Break would last for about 10 mins or so.
Security guard observed me whole night, as I took my shirt off at some point, changed into shorts and later told me that watching me dance and me being me, made him LOLLL more than he had ever during these rave events. Also I believe this had infinitely bigger impact because no matter how much in the flow I am, I always made sure to not take up unecessary space around me, so people right next to me werenât in the slightest impacted by me going bazookas.
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- Insane/surreal levels of attention/provocation from the ladies, unlike anything I had ever witnessed or thought possible, too many specific situations to describe and it would turn this post into Ego flexing, but I will mention one part where I was surprised by my own reaction as much as the girl:
I am taking a break, going outside and this beautiful girl that I see for the first time literally says:
"DUDE I NEED TO TOUCH THAT CHEST!!! I was baffled by her being so direct/aggresive, but I just said:
âThank you for complimenting my looks, however I donât know you and I donât believe it is fair for me to allow it in this case, just because I am a guy and our culture wouldnât deem it as inappropriate.â (I just felt responsibility to do this and I canât explain it any better)
She kept pushing and even her male friend tried to jokingly convince me, but I kept firm. Then I went to play with the nearby street dog, cuz I noticed him laying around and just felt the need to give him my full attention for the moment
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- I was able to have small talk and have fun with so many people, many of whom I met there for the first time, which is unusual for me, the small talk part I mean. In a way, it felt like I was glorified, even though there was no objective reason for people to feel this way towards me.
Although the moment I will cherish the most when it comes to interactions, was that as rave ended officially, people went home, I staid there because I was talking to a much older guy and lost track of time, got really deep and eventually as we are picking up the trash, event organizers show up and it was just so humbling to hear their wholesome perspective regarding raves, where it was like a little kid is just bombarding them with questions, while being treated as their equal (since I am noticeably younger than them.)
Honestly, I saved the last experience summary, because I had this somewhat shallow perception regarding rave event organization, true intent behind them and this felt like the biggest gift of the night, being able to grasp the soul of these specificaly organized rave events. When going to techno raves, majority of attendants are drug abusers of some kind and in my mind I couldnât fathom that the organisers would be such wholesome people.
How did I get to this stage of life? [Motivational perspective]
This came as the result of me working on myself for over 2 years since I discovered SM, much trial and error, facing my insecurities, learning to love who I am (@Sarumann33 ), many challenges and most of all willingness/dedication to daily work with the Stand since it was released (cherry on top) and innovate my approach over and over again, see what works and improve on it, let go of that which doesnât.
To readers here and the attendants of the rave, I can be seen as a âmiracleâ but only I and some forum members know the amount of effort I have dedicated into improving myself and my life.
To all those who can only afford to use free fields/cheap paid ones and feel limited because of this, dedication and willingness to learn is what separates those that suceed in life vs those that had everything from the start, but were lazy.
I have much to learn, but when I look back to where I was 2 years ago, journey that led me to this point, beautiful souls from this forum that made me feel as a part of the community , Captainâs fields giving the magical support for entire time âŚI just bliss out for being incarnated on Earth at this moment and grateful for everything that happened up until now, good and the bad.
TLDR:
- I explain events that led to me entering the rave.
- Effortlessly experiencing different dimensions of Human Experiences
- Reality check/motivational talk
- Appreciation for everything that led me to this point