Hello everyone,
This is my first post here, and it’s not really the one I hoped for but I am very frustrated. Firstly, I would like to say that I have been lurking in the forum for weeks and I have enjoyed the wealth of knowledge I’ve found here. This seems like a really awesome and supportive place. Which I guess is why I feel comfortable enough to have a little vent.
The short backstory is that I have always been drawn to spirituality and spiritual practices. I got a minor degree in religious studies in college, I have been attuned in reiki (years ago) and dabbled in manifestation and magic. This brought me to discover Sapien medicine. I have been putting my faith in subconscious reprogramming and healing after I have had a few of the worst years of my life. I feel lost, emotionally and mentally broken, and very depressed. To top it off, I have been having a terrible case of bad luck for the past few weeks and I am near tears tonight.
I spent hours on this forum researching and cultivating my perfect list of fields to begin my healing process. With everything going downhill in my life, this morning I woke up almost giddy to purchase the fields off gumroad that I was positively drawn to. I felt like I was finally seeing a light in the darkness. It sounds so pathetic to say that, but I have never felt lower and a little bit of hope kept me going forward.
So I purchased the fields with my credit card. My most important being The Point of no Return. I was so happy. I have been listening to them all day. I love them. But then I started getting emails saying my purchases had been refunded. I did reply to the emails stating I did not request a refund and I had already downloaded the fields and want to pay. I came here to investigate if this had happened to anyone else. I found a post talking about how gumroad basically flags some purchases as fraud and bans your card. And I discovered that supposedly now my fields will not be effective. Obviously I would never want to cheat a creator out of paying for their amazing work. But I am so disappointed because I really wanted this to happen. My bad luck continues 
I’m not really sure what the point of this post is other than to vent to people who might understand. No one in my life except my mom knows I use sound healing/fields and subliminals/affirmations.
Is there something I can do? The post I read about the same situation said basically gumroad was no help and their card was blacklisted. Should I bother trying to go through them? I hate feeling so negative but with all the things that have been happening to me lately, this was just the icing on the cake.
Anyway, I appreciate you reading this if you did. It felt a little nice to get it off my chest. But I am really sad that I cannot use the fields I have been dreaming about.
thank you 
