Sorry for this, but I feel like crying. There were so many paid fields I wanted to buy and turn around my future in amazing ways. I had really dreamed about them when Incould buy them…
Still, I am grateful for those I were able to get.
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same… 
thx for my past self keep delay not to buy vibration of Divine Love and now I don’t think I will have a chance to buy it …
"gumroad fields copies is limitless let’s buy other field first " that’s what my ego told me in the past
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I feel you. It is the same mistake I did. This teaches us that we can not take anything for granted. We hope to have second chance
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Architect of Reality… Matchmaker 2.0…The Best Path in Life, Hardcore Level… The Potion of Manifestation…and the brain fields… 
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Forum is
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One thing I can say is that Sammy said on the group discord call that he had a vision of the gumroad being re-available at some point in the future. Obviously that is no guarantee though, whatsoever, but more like a glimmer of hope.
But truthfully… it might as well not happen. We simply don’t know.
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What do you mean a vision?
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I think he meant by intuition - a possible vision of the future
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We’ll see. After all, I think the future costantly changes so…
Hope it’ll happen for patreon too. I want the grounded warrior…
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Nothing negative in this venting session is directed towards Dream or Sam. It is more me venting about myself.
So, I have been a “lurker” here for over a year. Every day I came here to read this forum from top to bottom, and even left a dedicated browser tab permanently open for quick access. I only recently created a new username here because I was embarrassed by my first post with my original account and wanted a fresh start. I made an agreement with myself that I was going to become active in the forum and even keep a journal in the journeys category. I had been lurking for so long I came to feel like I knew the people here without even talking to them, and it was very comforting but one-sided. For some reason, I felt really shy to post here and kind of like “what’s the use?” because everyone here is smarter than me and I will look dumb. See, these are the kind of issues that Dream’s work is helping me overcome in my life. I went from rock bottom at the beginning of my journey to a new story excited to grow and learn. I am frustrated I did not start getting out of my comfort zone sooner. I let my fears stop me from possibly learning more and making friends.
I feel devastated about what is happening but also upset with myself for how I am responding emotionally. It is bringing me down A LOT and focusing on lack, loss, and disappointment. I was actually just having a talk with my higher self a few weeks ago about how I need to be more trusting of my inner guide instead of looking for answers outside of myself and also stop being so reliant on fields. I almost felt like I was addicted to this place when everything went down and I realized just how much I relied on all the resources provided by Dream and the team. I didn’t realize just HOW much time I spent every day looking up every little question or idea I had, looking for answers. So, in a weird way I got my wish to step back, but now I am deeply down and feel like I am losing a part of my life that I truly treasure. This was the place that was comfortable and reassuring and I took that for granted. Isn’t that just like humans, though? Asking for stuff but then not satisfied when they get it 
So I feel like a hypocrite because I wanted to become more independent, but as soon as it was gone I panicked.
I have been trying to practice empathy and put myself in the shoes of Dream and Sam to counteract the guilt I feel about being upset over the choice to go away. I obviously am not in their place, but even from an outsiders perspective, I feel like I get it a little bit. Doing what they do costs them time, money, energy, and more. No one is owed anything, and we are lucky that we got so many gifts. Even then, I’m sure it never stops… people constantly asking for stuff, complaints about prices are the most absurd to me (people have to make a living and deserve to be paid according to the value they provide), and just the unfortunate fact that there are people out there who harass, steal, scam, and are just plain a-holes.
I knew I shouldn’t have, but I had a look at some of the channels on YouTube that are posting the gumroad audios and reading the comments was very depressing. The people see it as a big joke when someone calls them out on their crappy behavior and idolize the uploader as Robinhood or something. I even recognized some members of patreon and even this forum commenting saying thanks and asking for more resold fields. I know it’s pointless to try to reason with those people and I am just lowering my vibes by engaging, but reporting the channels seems to do nothing. This must be a helpless feeling, when your hard work is being trashed and stolen. People just really suck sometimes.
Recently, I have felt a huge shift in energy and haven’t quite been able to figure out why it is affecting me so greatly, but even before this happened I felt a ton of hostile and negative energy in the air. When YouTube first lost many of the videos, I was reading the comments trying to see if anyone knew what was happening and of course there are people there assuming that Dream just “scammed” everyone, even casually dropping racial slurs, and no one seems to care they just want to know when the video will be back and why they aren’t entitled to shit for free anymore. I get it, a lot of people depend on Dream’s work for many reasons, but damn the take take take mentality must get exhausting to engage with on any level. Especially after you spend so much time helping people.
That is another reason I am frustrated with myself and need to vent because I know better than to become dependent on anything in life, but that is easier said than done. I am an imperfect person with many flaws and a long way to go, but I shouldn’t have assumed someone else would do the work for me. They graciously provided these tools for us and I am just focused on how upset I am. I am grateful to infinity for everything and so touched by people helping others. I do understand that Dream and Sam have spoiled us and deserve to do whatever they choose, but I feel like I am losing a close loved one and I am beating myself up about it and feeling selfish. They have lives and families and need to do what is best for them.
Sorry this was a mess, it was all a stream of consciousness. There are no people I know in real life who understand, but I needed to get it off my chest so I can focus on the positive, appreciate what I do have, and stop being so self centered. I won’t lie, I would be psyched if there was a way for the forum to stay and possibly evolve in whatever direction Sam takes it, but maybe this is a lesson for the best 
You guys don’t know me, but I love you all and will miss this community. I hate the format of Discord, but I will give it a try. Peace and love to all.
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Its because the trolls and morons feel more safe there than here
How do I stop getting jealous of other people’s families? I didn’t have a good child hood and I’m not close at all with my family and it makes me bitter when I see other families laughing and smiling like there best friends
It feels lonely af guys. Sure I’ve got some friends now but that’s not the same as family is it
I’m sad I don’t have that kind of relationship with my family. Never had typical family dinners, family outings , them teaching me things about life. Just all negative experiences . My kids won’t have grandparents, my wife won’t have in laws in the future, dam that’s depressing to think about
How can I get over this trauma, I’ve dealt with a lot of other stuff but I feel like this is the last hurdle to keep me from truly ascending. It makes me feel so bitter . Family is literally the most important thing in the world in my eyes and I ain’t got that . I have my grandparents they are chilling but my grandads dead and grandma’s back in her country so yeah I don’t really have anyone atm it’s really isolating
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sure you don’t want this in the healing or ask for advice thread?
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Sure maybe ask for advice would be better thank you 
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In terms of fields
Childhood Revision
Parental Archetype
Compassionate Acceptance and Understanding
Have you used these over a long period ?
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I’m not sure a field is gonna help with this lol… what I need is to create my own family probably
No way I’d ever be able to accept or self love my way this , family is everything
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Attract your soul tribe (Patreon)
I can’t help you other then fields with this issue so this is all I got
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Thank u for trying man 
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