What to do when you are so disconnected to your body and spirit since early childhood?

[anon75179789]

@Sarumann33

have locked you to protect you, you are super inteligent and understand what happens and are allowing your self to be low life as a deffence so nobody will feed upon you.

perfectly said. Wish you the best!

[kimchisauerkraut]

@Sarumann33

will keep it simple: your are poisoned from a very define negative energy from a very early age, your higher self or soul have locked you to protect you, you are super inteligent and understand what happens and are allowing your self to be low life as a deffence so nobody will feed upon you.
Better?

Quite clear, thank you. But I can’t imagine how is it possible that this world is so bad. And I don’t like seeing myself as something special. Also, on the contrary, what I got as gnosis was this speaking person locked something up and he’s not happy that I locked him up. Different perspectives, I guess.

Nevertheless, I benefit a lot from your experience and explanation. I hope I can truly get what you are talking about someday.

[Sarumann33]

This world is a paradise, a healing ground for all no more no less. The creatures and agendas make it a very difficult experience…for your sake you can omit “special” and leave the strong. Take care!

[kimchisauerkraut]

Now re-read this original post again, I sounded like a whining lunatic who came up with problems out of nowhere.

[Divine_Lotus]

Oh man i relate… this has a lot to do with your sense of self worth, respect, honor. i made a post relating to this so i hope you may find it useful:

The Childhood Trauma/CPTSD/ACEs Group

Heres stuff i’ve found that helped me and i hope it will help anyone struggling (I have experienced about 2 decades of trauma. No substance abuse or psychedelic usage exp, clean). Sharing the ideas. All intuitive work and plenty of research and time.u I’m not sure if i should embed links or share like this and mention other creators in this post so i’ll keep them to names & lists instead. If this isn’t something i should post here, then i’d be open to share elsewhere if anything. First and for…

Many more info in the whole thread

[Infinitecreators]

I resonated with a lot of the things that were said in this thread. When I read your first post, it felt like I was reading about myself, or at least part of myself. Thanks for sharing your experience and bringing awareness to it

[Alex]

The thread that Divine_Heroine share, also has a guy mentioned, Pete Walker with some resources.
He has a book “Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving” which is a very good read.
Please check it out