I’m glad you’re taking action on what to do @Shiv999
Have you tried the Point of No Return field?
https://forum.enlightenedstates.com/t/point-of-no-return/29665
Or free, potentially newer version, stack:
It may eliminate a lot of ‘noise’ from ‘outside influence’ and pair with Self Love Stacks for release and self worth.
https://forum.enlightenedstates.com/t/jaajs-daily-self-love-stack/27697