Hello people, I would like to know if there is an audio to overcome this addiction and recover all your potential.
Since I was 11 years old (I am currently 20) I have looked at pornography almost daily and masturbated at least 2 times a day until I was 19 years old. This last year due to the pandemic my family went through financial problems that I had never had and when I wanted to support them or put myself in charge of the family business, my development as a person was not what was expected. Although I always consider myself much smarter and stronger compared to others (before 12), when I finished school I felt that my development had been null compared to someone my age or to the expectations that people had of me. When I started college, I started skipping classes after midterms because I was too bored and it was hard for me to interact with people. Despite this, the first two cycles I was in the upper fifth of my faculty (the best university in my country) and I felt that I could continue to skip classes and not present work without much consequence (I spent them at home masturbating or watching porn almost all day). However, from the 3rd cycle my grades began to drop, my mind began to cloud more and it began to cost me more to concentrate to study. I feel like I donât have energy. My muscles are almost completely gone (although in high school I did not do sports due to my diet and genes, I suppose I had a good body) and it has become fat, especially in the abdomen area and in the love handles (I have stretch marks on my legs and arms but my stomach swelled). Also I get nervous easily and it is difficult for me to lead people. In quarantine, I had to accompany my father in his businesses, but I notice how the people around him look at me with pity, due to my isolation I did not develop my verbal ability and mental agility typical of people of my age so it is difficult for me to communicate with the workers (more than 100 people) or my fatherâs friends (successful entrepreneurs with children my age but more normal). This year I started to stop masturbation but at most I abstain for a month and when I ejaculate all the energy I have accumulated goes away. I want to stop masturbation, but above all I want to regain the energy that I feel I have lost or all the potential that I did not develop (height, strength, intelligence, etc).
Soul Restoration very good
And work on your first 3 chakras
This could be very helpful too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbAKLhzLv10 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZW_Q7VTkZE These are two very important audios that were forgotten to be mentioned, using these two audios and some dose of willpower I got a recent journey of more than 30 days, I used only twice a day each, and when I felt that the desire increases, I put it in a loop for a while.
One more that is nice to look into
This one is great for abstaining all together
My recos:
- Sacral and Base Chakra - sexual energy linked to the sacral chakra.
- Soul Restoration (core) - restores the lower dantian which has leakages due to arousal.
- Jing - Fills the Jing (kidney energy) which is lost from sexual thoughts + imagination.
- Soul Restoration (brow) - restores upper dantian which has leakages due to watching porn.
- Shen - Fills the Shen which is leaked through the eyes into the screen while watching porn.
- Dopamine Redux - Resets the brainâs dopamine receptors.
- Exorcism Rite - Casts out negative entities that may have latched onto you.
- Curse/Spell Removal - Casts out spells or curses.
- Divine Love - Fills the sense of void or emptiness that made you use porn to fill up your life. You just want to feel loved and happy, but clearly this method isnât it. Try unconditional love.
- Attention and Focus - Usually the mind is slack and low-powered when you try to gain stimulation. Usually you are tired, stressed, bored, etc - these are low-energy states, where you then try to gain a higher arousal state (which you try to use porn for).
The rest is hard work. No other way about it.
If you overload too much energy, try:
- Transmutation and Microcosmic Orbit
- Automated Grounding
- Hakuin Healing Egg
Itâs not much about the actual semen, so donât try to âsemen retainâ. Semen is a useless byproduct with not much energy, it is bija. The actual ojas splits off and is lost. Both bija and ojas comes from the seminal precursor that comes from bone marrow (food â chyle â blood â flesh â fat â bone â marrow â seminal precursor). So the very moment seminal precursor turns into bija and ojas is already too late - thatâs the moment when you get sexually aroused in your mind and kickstart the physiological process down there.
*edited to change âhigh energyâ to âhigh arousalâ instead
Orgasm being the high energy state?
Orgasm is just reaching a shock of the nervous system. The high-arousal state (edited) is just feeling aroused by and feeling preoccupied with sexual fantasies, getting riled up, having stimuli and âsomething to doâ. That feeling of anticipation that is pretty similar to watching a movie for its âthrillâ. Orgasm is a relative pleasure caused by release of that pressure and pent-up frustration. Due to that sudden release of frustration, the mind freezes for a while. From the sudden cessation of our usually-busy mind, the energy in males leaks through the hui-yin point.
Iâm not too sure about the other details on what happens during sex instead, but Iâve got to ask my friend about it. But yeah, itâs the fact that we hate boredom and feeling like we have nothing to do, and having a low energy stateâŚ
For example:
In 11 studies, we found that participants typically did not enjoy spending 6 to 15 minutes in a room by themselves with nothing to do but think, that they enjoyed doing mundane external activities much more, and that many preferred to administer electric shocks to themselves instead of being left alone with their thoughts. Most people seem to prefer to be doing something rather than nothing, even if that something is negative.
^ In this article, people would rather give themselves electric shocks (crazy!) than sit in boredom.
Here is what helped me from the ââinsideââ
Turn Your fantasies into power via transmutation. Yes meditation helps too and videos people have send links helps too. But what if you have tons of ââlife energyââ ^^?
Dont touch yourself, at any cost, and whenever you get the urge or porn flashback, convince yourself that in your current state, or in your current life situation, those will never come ture because ââlack of confidence/motivation/grades/money/fitnessââ etc.
The very important part is to not figthing the urges or simply to not fight your sex drive.
Whenever a fantasy hits, however devious, convice your inner self that if you got better /confidence/money/fitness/ Your fantasies have more % chance of becoming true. Thats actually true when you think of it.
After some days you will be so abudant in energy and yet you have forbided yourself to release
Then imagine and realize that when You will become more succesful in life, whatever goals You might have- Your genes have more chance of spreading and attracting partner= You will have more probability of having sex.
Its actually that simple and all those anexity etc will also disapear I mean thay might still be there but You will just dont fucking care, You just want to smash p***y 
My past self can relate to that.
So meditation is being in high energy state coz we like doing it yet we are doing nothing?
Oh and also dont hate your self and dont hate your body for feeling like that, Your body or lets say your genes just want to life, its just in modern times We have a trouble of adjusting our instincts and vital energies to the all technology and modern society we live in.
You are perfectly fine, just bamboozled
Okay my bad, I had a bad word selection⌠I mean physically aroused state with a lot of frustration and stress, in a fight-or-flight mode. Thatâs what I mean by a âhigh energy stateâ. I should probably reword that to âhigh arousal stateâ instead.
Meditation is different. Itâs the complete opposite where you are not doing anything at all. And when you drop all thoughts, you stop âspending your energyâ maintaining those thought constructs. All the reification drops away over time and because your energy doesnât leak into maintaining thought structures, physiological functions⌠etc. Hence, it leads to more energy.
Great!
More motivation to keep on meditating
What is a better motivator for you, fear or inspiration? This isnt rhetorical, it really depends on the person. It could even be a mix of the two. There is no ârightâ or âwrongâ answer there.
I think a healthy mix of the 2 can work really well. Wake-up and look in the mirror and say
âThis is where I was headed, thank goodness Iâm not down that path anymoreâ
then follow it up with a
âThis is where I am heading now, thank goodness I am in control of my lifeâ
Fear is the most powerful motivator. Somebody told me that masturbation makes you recede hairline and after that day I never masturbated. Because I had a major fear of losing hair
Same is when i was addicted to eating junk food. And when I reasearched that when you eat all of the junk it stays in your system for 7 days and then BOOM never ate junk food.
It really is a good motivator.
Indeed. See this real example, for people who have chronic masturbation habit:
For such people can they masturbate in a public road? Do you need to force your mind to stop yourself from masturbating outside in public? It is simple: Fear of Punishment/shame stops you.
Fear is a powerful motivator.
What if you pee blood next time you masturbate, would you dare to do that again now?
Well, I donât think so, people are demonizing masturbation very recently, I was radical and wanted to stop masturbating, but I realized that life is one, well thereâs reincarnation and everything, but this life is just one , and celibacy I donât think is the best way to enjoy it, whether masturbation is natural or not does it really matter? Questions like whether it is conscious or unconscious really matter? Iâm totally in favor of treating addictions for sure, but I donât think anyone needs to abstain forever, unless they plan to be a monk, the big problem with masturbation is that it triggers a disease called post orgasmic disease syndrome, where some people they develop mental fog, tiredness, pain, and many other problems, the first step is to find out if you suffer from this disease, that said I donât think it causes hair loss, the excess may cause you to fall because you may be without nutrients, say that masturbation hair loss is to say that sex also causes, because we ejaculate in sex, again we get into the biggest problem that is exaggeration.