Hello everyone, Iām Siria and a new member. 
Been reading a lot in this forum since February, finally signed up recently and also subscribed to patreon. Itās so amazing how you all contribute and share your knowledge. I hope soon I can also become a more active user here and join discussions, or share experiences with the fields. Iām very grateful to have found Dream and to be here with you in this forum.
Last year a huge change in my life happened: my inner voice told me to quit my job (a job Iāve been doing for 7 years and I enjoyed a lot). So I quit my job, I separated from my partner after a 10 year long relationship (this happened four months after quitting my job), we then canceled our apartment and I decided to not rent a new place, but instead travel full time. So since September last year Iāve been traveling and so many things happened.
Fast forward: now I reached a point where Iām longing to find a place to live, to settle, to find my soul family, a new fulfilling job, and eventually feel ready for being in a relationship again.
Iām in Japan right now. I love Japan but I donāt want to live here. I booked a flight to Australia next, but I feel quite ālostā. Not sure what path to take in my life right now. But I really want to find a place to call home again. But which country, which city, just where in the world I donāt know.
Going back to my home country Germany just causes a big āNoooā yelling inside my head. But there is no pull in a specific direction. I feel like I have all doors open in front of me but donāt know which way to choose.
I do feel this is rooted a bit in feeling insecure, anxious about taking the wrong decision and a lack of trust in myself. Even though I tell myself this is silly since any step I take will lead me to new experiences.
Well, after reading through the struggles other people were going through in this forum, I decided to fully concentrate to work on Selflove. I read a lot of posts, and I thought this was the best thing to focus on.
Iāve been listening to @JAAJ daily Self Love stack for the past month during daytime. Iāve also been listening to @Maoshan_Wanderer Unconditional Love stack since beginning of March also during daytime. What I recently added are: higher self connection mandala & listening to the field, the Guided Path, the Blessed Paths and also another thing I started very recently after stumbling upon a post (sorry forgot which one): while listening to Angelic Intercession, I ask my Guardian Angel for the most benevolent outcome to find a new place to call home and build a new fulfilling life.
I should probably listen to PONR as well (not sure why I havenāt done that yet!!).
At night I take a listening break.
Overall, I feel happier, more content, more self assured, also good things are happening during my travels BUT still, here I am feeling lost and uncertain where to go and where I want to live. This often keeps me up at night. Maybe Iām stressing myself out too much about finding a new place to live. Life has taught me that things usually work out best, when I just focus on the things that bring me joy and also to give back to people around me. In the past, this always lead to new opportunities and I didnāt even have to work hard to have positive outcomes. Iām overall a very happy and cheerful person.
Itās a new feeling for me to feel so lost, worried about my future and without any direction.
My family in friends keep telling me to come back home. But my heart and subconscious mind tell me no. To keep looking for that special place.
I want to shift my mindset again back to having faith in myself, and looking forward to a bright future! I want to feel certain about that I will find a place to live and feel happy.
Sorry, for this long post, I just think itās good to know where Iām at right now to help me with my question. Iāve read about the Best Path in Life and kept coming back here to this thread. Do you think this could be the right field to listen to and also use the mandala? Do you think I can use it as a beginner, or does another field come into your mind that could help me to find my path?
āDoes the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?ā (Garth Nix, Sabriel)
Thank you very much for reading my long post. I highly appreciate your comments, thoughts or guidance.
I believe this field guided me to use fields that should be on my priority stack, rather than listening to too many due to FOMO. That realization hit when I posted for advice and received some helpful comments from users and then pondering about to myself, ādo I actually need bunch of fields that donāt serve my purpose?ā I immediately cut my stack immensely and am focusing on the stack that will yield the best results towards my development.
