I have this problem since my early childhood. Maybe it was to due to some abuse I faced during my childhood and some supposedly entities issues I had.
Whenever I start something new, ranging from reading a book to starting a business, in the start I have massive success going towards the sky, but once it is clear / established that I am going to succeed I sabotage myself. I abandon what I am doing. Things start to go down. Its like something inside me does not want me to succeed.
My analysis is that I got good grades in early school and then the problems happened. My guess is that I am fearful that something bad will happen to me if I succeed or achieve my goal and I started to get put off and do not want to pursue. This behavior has happened in my studies, my health issues, my work, my business, my love life everywhere. I have tried some subliminals also but could not pinpoint the exact fear or whatever it is. Maybe it is fear of success, or fear of security or what, I am unable to define it in words.
What audios should I use for this?