I have been playing with this for about a month now and while that expression is too often thrown about in today’s top-shelf words I mean it: it has been life changing.
What I like most is that it’s not a crutch, it’s something to use until I KNOW I am the one doing it all It sheds the fears I have accrued in the last years and helps me reconnect with my inherent capacities and worth. The course is aptly named!
The possibilities are basically endless. The only thing standing between me and everything I want in life are negative/limiting beliefs. Release those and everything becomes possible. So far I have used this to release physical discomfort (including fatigue and resistance to the fields which makes them extra delicious!), to let go of undesired emotions and to manifest various things concretely in my life. I also love that it pushes me to be creative and see what I can come up with I now have more ease of focus, more confidence in myself and in life and also a process to go back to to centre myself. Things that seemed problematic a few weeks ago are either dedramatised or seen as challenges, because everything is a collapse away from being released.
With the Light Collapser integrated, it feels like having laser gun fingers that I can point at everything and go “Release!” Pew-pew!
A PARTICULARLY MEANINGFUL REALISATION
In the last years, I had been working under the premise that my main issue following illness was seeing the world as a fearful place. I had been diligently working on those negative beliefs but without the results I was expecting and I was getting pretty frustrated.
One day, with the Light Collapser active, I started saying any word that came to mind and seeing which one felt like big morsels to bite into. At one point the word “power” came up and I had a HUGE release. I thought that was weird, considering I viewed power as positive. I said it again and an enormous wave of sadness came on. And again and again and again. Completely overpowering sadness and grief. In the last years I have gotten used to the method of sitting with an emotion to release and I have never had such a long and powerful release before.
The following day as I was meditating to Conceptual Realization I suddenly knew that all this time, what had blocked me was fearing that if I got back into my own power, I would put myself in the same situations that lead to my being ill. I hadn’t been afraid of the world, I was afraid of myself. Things really started shifting
All that being said, it wasn’t a completely smooth ride, I had two rougher periods so far. In the beginning, old fears rose up en masse and were a bit overwhelming. Which I knew meant I was on the right track. Then I remembered to:
It’s still not a habit for that to be my go-to but it’s getting there
The other one came after releasing so many things that I felt a bit empty and aimless. But eventually the emptiness started being filled with gratitude and love and I reconnected to desires (still an ongoing process).
One thing I have noticed is that a certain vigilance is required because even with things being released, habitual thinking can make it seem like they aren’t. There have been times where I caught myself needlessly engaging in old behaviours. But when I paid attention I saw that there was no bite, I could easily choose differently. So being mindful has been important.
For a long time, all I had been wanting to do is to reach a place where I felt like my old self and could have a normal day to day. Discovering Sapien Med last May finally shifted me from that slow freeze I had been in (I wasn’t totally frozen but progress was slow). There were definitely periods when things were easier, but overall I still had to push, prod and convince in order to accomplish things, it definitely didn’t come naturally Now I finally feel like I can stop expanding effort in doing the most mundane of things and I can start dreaming again! And then shed what I think ‘my old self’ means and take it to the next level. It’s a wonderful feeling
I echo what someone else has said, this is some of the best money I have ever spent!
Much much gratitude to Angel, Dream and Sam