I used to have the same problem bro.
I know what you feeling, the desperation, especially when i read comment in ytb people claim they have result and i have none.
Then one day i realize that if all this spiritual is truth, then i must be very powerful and I came here - this life, to do something, to live, not just rely on something else like field and subliminal.
Since then i workout, self development,
…etc…until one day i realize Ohh, i become so much confidence…in a very short time.
Then i see the field work…it work with you, with your conscious effort. Subconscious is powerful…but conscious…is not less important.
So my friend, work hard, listen field and forget everything. If it doesnot work, then fine, life go on.