Ahh this field…
Its so weird and cute lol just to put it somehow.
Ive been having my ego triggered with a couple of stuff the past 2 days.
I know its ego, i recognize it, i am working on it, however part of my frustration is that even if my ego was the sweetes kitten, there are other parts involved (people) that are just there not doing their own job. Still ego… i must let go of control, do my thing and go with the flow.
Thing is ive been UPSET. Literally upset, really upset. Lets be clear lol however i at the same time am in a good mood haha i know… im making no sense.
Its like regardless of what is going on im smiling, joking, positive, just cooked lunch a while ago dancing etc…
But i am upset.
Am i lying to myself and being a hypocrite? Noo.
I feel both things just as much, however i think in the recognition of what i need to do to stop being upset, in the process of doing what i need to do… this field is holding me high, as if it was doing this:
All comfortable and everything
Or if i had the ability to just do this
And i think thats beautiful!!!
Because the hardest thing to overcome something is having to also deal with the emotional or mental state dropping to the floor because of whatever situation we are going through, and the more difficult the more the constant battles we have to fight to keep the spirit high and with hope so we can get through.
Life and the world will always throw fkery at Us, because we cannot control everything and everybody, having this on my side is like having Timon on my shoulder telling Me when I need it:
so grateful for this!!