I´ll throw in some things, not just in response to the OP but other potential users and lurkers.
@Luminous makes some good points, tho nothing that couldn´t be alleviated by safer use (proper set/setting etc) and fields.
However
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Just because it promotes a feeling of freedom and euphoria doesn´t make it the same as a psychedelic. MDMAs chemical structure is close to the one from meth, so be aware that it´s more of a very powerful stimulant and not in the same category like LSD, DMT etc.
Safer use includes doing research and knowing what you´re actually taking, what it does and which negative effects it can have too.
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Big “can”. Depends on the user and other factors, especially on how much he is willing to work with and integrate the experience. If you have hidden trauma (spoiler: most humans have) and are unable to deal with it in a constructive manner should it come up during your trip, you´re in for a hard ride.
This risk is relatively close to zero on MDMA tho, due to its mechanism, just adding this here since you mentioned psychedelics.
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After a certain treshhold MDMA gets converted to MDA, which is alot more hallucinogenic than MDMA but also alot more neurotoxic, up to 5x.
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In what form is it? Pills, powder, caps, crystals, liquid? What dosis? Who says it´s actual MDMA that you´re taking and not some derivat or analoga? Your friends? Your dealer? It´s always “clean”, “the best” whatever.
Having some research chemcial or just a plain overdose can fuck up your day, at best, alot of substance work in the microgram!-range!
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From my own first time I know the profound effect it can have, especially on traumatized people.
However, this is usually fleeting. It can open your eyes to how it feels without negative emotions, which can either help you heal from trauma and negative emotions, or (which is more likely for most) can lead down to a path of addiction torwards it.
Personally I´ve reached with fields, pranayama and meditation alot more, deeper and lasting breakthroughs and expansion, that I ever did with substances.
To be honest, you look to me like somebody who is fairly inexperienced/lacks the proper preparation to handle it safely. If you do continue make sure to do proper research, practice safer use, ideally get your pills whatever tested or buy a test kit, hydrate, electrolytes, proper set etc. etc.
@Owl gave some good recommendations.
I won´t advise for or against it, just a few things to think about.