JAAJ's Mystical Journal

[JAAJ]

Here at the End of the World (Shinji's Monologue)

"so NERV wants 3rd impact to cure the human disease
and my lame ass dad is trying to revive his bullshit dream
and i’m caught in the middle with a penguin and redhead
and a milf that drinks too much and i think i’d rather be dead
but before i depart, let me impart some knowledge
because i’ve seen all this shit and i ain’t even hit college
if you want to live a quiet life and hold onto your balls
the only thing you have to do is never answer when your dad calls
ever since then, i’ve been too fucked up to think
i got so many problems and i’m not even old enough to drink
but no one understands the kind of shit that i go through
like jacking off to comatose girls in hospital rooms
oh yeah, and there’s also this thing i have to do on wednesdays
where i save the earth from crazy fucking angels from outer space
and redeem humankind and let everyone decide what they want to be
and all i get is “congratulations”? are you fucking kidding me?
i’m so sick of everyone talkin to me like i’m a kid
i lost my mom when i was 2 and turned out better than asuka did
even so my life just keeps tumbling down and tumbling down
and i seem to be the only one that can pilot this eva now
oh and i just found out this fucking robot is my mother
and i’m the only one that can drive it because of the link we have with each other
and it’s all so fucked up i just wanted to jet out of this place
and i would have except i became a god of time and space

and my dad just died trying to bring my mom back
i’ve got a happy family after all, how sweet is that?
but i’d still like to say a few words i’ve written down
to this fuckhead who obviously doesn’t want me around
let me compose myself here at the end of the world
surrounded by tang, rei’s giant head, and this fucking turd
that i just tried to strangle because like i said, i’m fucked up
but she’s fucked up too, so i guess that’s good enough

all i ever wanted for myself was a normal life
just fallin asleep alone with my headphones in every night
i never asked to be pulled into this shit, you had to fuck with me
and call me out of nowhere and tell me to be what i didn’t want to be
and then when i was hesitant you had to be a prick
and tell me to go home, you didn’t need me, you fuckin dick
but i got in that fuckin robot and i rolled over your plan
look at me now dad, your little pussy’s grown into a man
not only that, i got a fuckin harem of my own
even if one of them’s 30, one’s a bitch, and one’s a clone
and they all choose my dick over 3rd impact, your plan bombed
guess you should have been a better dad and not sacrificed mom
you should have seen how this would end when that first angel fell
you deserved to lose, i hope kaworu buttfucks you in hell
but don’t fret, i’ll be chillin in a sea of orange sizzurp
with this hot ass bitch and a vacation much deserved"

ゼーレ

人類補完計画

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[JAAJ]

"Yeah, you better know where you’re going
You’re a wanderer, just like me
Yeah, you better know where you’re going
You’re a wanderer, just like me"

Vicetone - Nevada (ft. Cozi Zuehlsdorff)

Glastonbury is indeed a very special and uplifting place.

Not necessarily in terms of the “amount of Chi” or “high Bovis units”, but primarily in terms of being a place of higher vibration than most places and in terms of the places potential of the activation of various Chakras.
A focus on the Crown Chakra will get you a lot of downloads there.
The energy at the top of the Glastonbury Tor hill is also very special and feels like it is overseen by the Angelic Forces themselves.

It seems there are many factors that determine the overall “Energy of a Place”:

Factors as per the location itself:

• The physical dirtyness or cleanliness of the place. Pollution is entropy and attracts lower energies. Cleanliness and natural order and beauty / coherence / negentropy attracts higher energies.

• The place’s Chi / Orgone / Life Force levels (amount of energy)

• The places’s DOR (Death Orgone) / radiation levels

• The vibration of the Chi itself (how uplifting or downpulling the energy is)

• The place’s local egregore morphic field that is fueled by the collective consciousness of people living there or thinking about that place, including everyone’s energies who has his identity setup linked to that place. For example, a German in Germany will feel different than a French in Germany and different than a German in France or a French in France, because of the different links inside their personal identity setups.

Factors as per time:

• Physical astronomical influences as per the current location of the Sun, the Moon and other planets. But also Galaxy-wise and higher up the scale.

• Astrological influences (time-wise)

Factors as per the person visiting the place:

• The person’s natal chart setup and/or current astrological chart setup

• The person’s astrological lines at that location as per astrocartography

• The subjective experience of the person who is experiencing the respective place (as per the person’s own vibration and Subconscious Mind perception filters).

• The “soul type” of the person, i.e. “a Human”, “a Star Seed” etc.

• The person’s current identity / game character setup (see above), as the identity is a set of links to various other morphic fields. For example “a German” will have “being German” inside his identity setup and by this automatically connect to all the “German morphic links and egregors”. So the identifications of a person and their identity setup matter a lot!

• The person’s own energy levels and energy body capacities and capabilities

• One’s personal soul preferences (e.g. feeling like an “Alien on Earth” or feeling like “a part of Humanity” etc. can have a big influence on the experience

• Whether the person grounds itself through the Root (Gaia) or through the Crown Chakra (Helios).

All of these factors (there are probably more) coming together define how a particular person experiences the “energy” of a particular place.

Also, here is a picture of JAAJ’s Astral Crystal Palace (game players with character level 777+ are welcome):

[JAAJ]

Press ESC to begin

Unreal Intro Castle Flyby captured from 3Dfx Voodoo2 SLI

Alter your reality. Forever.

Vandora, Goddess of Lightning:

The Blessing:

The Phoenix Rod:

The Phoenix Rod Crystalized:

[JAAJ]

- YouTube

"I hear your voice on the wind
And I here you call out my name

Listen my child, you say to me
I am the voice of your history
Be not afraid, come follow me
Answer my call and I’ll set you free"

I am the voice in the wind and the pouring rain
I am the voice of your hunger and pain
I am the voice that always is calling you
I am the voice, I will remain

I am the voice in the fields when the summer’s gone
The dance of the leaves when the autumn winds blow
Ne’er do I sleep throughout all the cold winter long
I am the force that in springtime will grow

I am the voice of the past that will always be
Filled with my sorrow and blood in my fields
I am the voice of the future
Bring me your peace
Bring me your peace and my wounds, they will heal

I am the voice in the wind and the pouring rain
I am the voice of your hunger and pain
I am the voice that always is calling you
I am the voice

I am the voice in the past that will always be
I am the voice of your hunger and pain
I am the voice of the future
I am the voice

I am the voice
I am the voice
I am the voice"

#Hod ☿

[JAAJ]

- YouTube

The Mechanics of Gratitude

I am grateful for the mechanics of the Concept of Gratitude.

The concept of gratitude feels like a cheat code that the Source itself has installed for itself into the game (and the rest of existence) in order to increase its own fun and gameplay flow.

Most people do not understand the concept of gratitude because they think that gratitude is something that they “give out to someone or something” and these people’s NPC ego refuses to “give out something for nothing”, LOL.

But this is because they do not see the bigger picture and the actual mechanics behind it.

Gratitude is not primarily about “giving” and “receiving”, but about Manifestation.

It is a manifestation mechanic.

The “giving” and “receiving” are just visible symptoms of this manifestation mechanic.

Most people hold back their gratitude, because to them it seems that their external circumstances “have not yet earned” to receive their gratitude.
These people assume that they would be giving something out and sell themselves (actually their ego) under value.
Because when “you give out more than what you take in, you are a sell-out”, right?

No.

Because this logic is build on wrong assumptions about gratitude.
Wrong assumptions where the ego thinks it only wins when it gives out less than it receives.

However, gratitude is not something “that one gives out”, but rather quite the opposite:

It is a CONSCIOUS REFLECTION of one’s own Inner State of Having.

So with “Gratitude”, one is actually going INSIDE and then consciously REFLECTING about what you ALREADY HAVE or what you COULD MANIFEST TO EXPERIENCE.

And what happens when you go inside and reflect on it?
You create a force directed outwards into the universe.

GOING INSIDE combined with CONSCIOUS REFLECTION creates an OUTWARD DIRECTED FORCE.

Because ALL manifestation is the Consciousness (you) mirroring itself back to itself.

This outwards directed force is not the gratitude itself but a CONSEQUENCE of the gratitude that you create inside of you.

This outwards directed force that is created BY gratitude creates a VORTEX OF NEGENTROPY and this vortex then PULLS more negentropic stuff into your life.

Anything negentropic, as abstract as it sounds, will materialize as a Blessing.

Because what we game players consider “blessings” is nothing more than an increase in negentropy in our life experience on all its different levels.

The more negetropic stuff comes into your life and happens in it, the easier your life (your personal game experience) becomes and the more “blessed” you will feel.

This vortex is negentropic because you are accessing the infinite pool of creative opportunities from the very source itself, i.e. from your own Consciousness (the real you), which is part of the All-That-Is-Source.

This is what spiritual teacher mean when they say “you have everything inside of you already” lol. (I know it doesn’t help when they say it in this abstract ways as souls like me always first need to understand the mechanic behind something before they can apply it , but that’s why most spiritual teachers out there are not actual teachers but just blind repetitors).

So how do most people self-sabotage their own blessings:

They choose stubbornness and “holding on” to something that should instead flow freely, and by this, they effectively block themselves off from the flow of life and from Higher Powers helping them out. Self-Sabotage at its finest!

This happens because most people are in “NPC Mode”, i.e. “Reaction Mode”.
When someone reacts to an external circumstances, they are not going inside and are not reflecting on what good things they already have or could potentially manifest.

Even worse, they are brainwashed that “gratitude is only something to be given out on special occassions” and AFTER the external circumstances “have earned to receive their gratitude”.
Do you see the twisted logic in that and the mindfuck that people play onto themselves?

Everyone “big gangsta boss” and ungrateful for stuff, until shit hits the fan and then they wonder why Angels & Co. are not helping them out with their ego-based entropic delussions.

The good thing about gratitude is that it is something that everyone can do at any time. Even the most lost souls can “go inside themselves” and become grateful for something and this act can pull even the most lost soul with the heaviest negative Karma out of their self-created hell of misery.
In fact, it is one of the very few ropes that these souls have to actually and effectively pull themselves out of a swamp like this.

Even animals feel a basic emotion of relief and gratitude when someone gives them food and helps them in their struggle against entropy (the struggle for physical survial).

Being grateful is a manifestation tool.
Everyone heard it a Million times already.
But maybe with the explanation of the mechanic behind it, it now makes more sense to people.

Gratitude for Blessings

And if you want to go on to the next meta level and amplify the whole mechanic of gratitude by the potency of itself, i.e. Gratitude squared, then apply this mechanic onto itself:

"I am grateful for the mechanics of the Concept of Gratitude."

Or in other words, be grateful that this mechanic is there in the first place and works for you!

[JAAJ]

Unreal Tournament '99 GOTY Soundtrack - Run (Run.umx)

What is “Wasted Time”?

The concept of “wasted time” is part of the physical space-time experience.

Because obviously you can only waste a resource (time) in a place where this resource is “limited”.

99.9% of the things we do during our physical incarnation could very well be considered “wasted time”, especially after listening to some entrepreneurs or motivational speakers on YouTube lmao.

What are the activities usually considered as being “time wastes”?

• Watching TV and streaming services
• Eating
• Sleeping
• Body care routines
• Cleaning the house
• Aimless social media and internet browsing
• Cooking
• Grocery shopping
• Taking out the trash
• Sitting at school and being brainwashed by idiots
• Putting cloth on and off
• Playing video games
• Jerking off to porn
• pointless chatter with people
• Working a soul crushing job
• Commuting to work
• Participating in societal obligations
• Shopping as a cope
• Coping behaviors in general
  …and many other things.

What is usually considered not as “wasted time”:

• When learning something new
• When making a new experience
• When making love with someone (bliss)
• Sharing time and experiences with other souls inside of meaningful relationships
• When having soul-joying fun that makes your heart sing (could be a favorite hobby, or inventing something that makes the world a better place etc.)

All of these things combined that are wasting our time and with that we are wasting our time, they do make the time-usage during the physical incarnation extremely inefficient, or don’t they?

So 99.9% of the time here is wasted.

Or isn’t it?

When it’s your first physical incarnation, most of the things that most consider “a time waste” are actually completely new and valuable experiences.

And even if you have made the same experience already many times, the next iteration still adds a little bit of additional experience information to the data base of your Higher Self.

So either way, regardless of how much time is wasted or perceived as being wasted, the whole system still moves forward and develops further.

Either way, new conceptual realizations are being made, even if the realization is that “I’ve had enough of this particular experience and decide to move on”.

This meta level of realizations is as important as the direct realizations themselves!

Realizing that you have realized something enough times, is as equally important.

All conceptual realizations matter!

And while a lot of stuff that we humans do here on the physical are considered time wastes, in the background they are all just building up to bigger realizations, that each soul will sooner or later make.

You can also still come back again and again to the physical, as annoying as the process is lol, but everyone has to decide upon their own ROI in the end and whether an incarnation is worth it for them or not.

FOMO and resentment only happen when people think that this is the only life they have and that they have wasted their only available time inside of it.

But enlightment happens, when you have wasted all your life time, realized that you have wasted it and then experience zero FOMO and resentment. But instead just gratitude to that whatever has happened, has led you here to this wisdom.

[Seraph]

@JAAJ

Sitting at school and being brainwashed by idiots

is there anything or anyone on the astral plane that can help us remove all brainwashing from society
will my higher self help me?

[JAAJ]

Yes, your Higher Self and higher beings on the astral planes will help you when you proactively ask them.

[Lanos]

And how to ask to be heard ?

[JAAJ]

Yeah, it is a challenge while you are still here in the physical.

Learning to listen to your own inner voice and the Higher Self connection fields are probably your best bet here.

[Lanos]

I wish there was easier way to be able to receive higher guidance and answers

[JAAJ]

It is part of the incarnational challenge. Hence the whole thing with “forgetting about your whole past and who you are are” when you incarnate here.

[Lanos]

Yes but people who are psychic or are into deep meditation can receive answers/guidance . So then they have a cheat code … not fair lol

[Rosechalice]

@Lanos

people who are psychic or are into deep meditation can receive answers/guidance . So then they have a cheat code … not fair lol

Have you looked at the Esoteric Arts Guild releases? That’s what we do.

Apologies @JAAJ

[Lanos]

Thanks @Rosechalice and @JAAJ. I know what you both mean. I was just chatting on.

This thread of yours is great JAAJ

[JAAJ]

Dr. Sun

"I don’t wanna be alone on the beach, no
Give me Dr. Sun, he’s my man
I don’t wanna be alone on the beach, no
Angel of the night, give him to me
I believe in to let a little sunshine in my life
I believe in him and me
My vacation is gonna be a pleasant memory
I will have him everyday

I’m gonna do what’s good for me
I’m gonna meet Dr. Sun
Liasson dangerous for me
I share it with the cream of girls
Who’s the worst
In seeking Dr. Sun

I don’t wanna be alone on the beach, no
Give me Dr. Sun, he’s my man
I don’t wanna be alone on the beach, no
Angel of the night, give him to me
I believe in, to let a little sunshine in my life
I believe in him and me
My vacation is gonna be a pleasant memory
I will have him everyday

I can never live without him, I can’t stand it
I can never live without it, I can’t stand it
I can never live without him, I can’t stand it
I can never live without it, I can’t stand it

Guess who
It’s the famous Dr. Sun

I don’t wanna be alone on the beach, no
Give me Dr. Sun, he’s my man
I don’t wanna be alone on the beach, no
Angel of the night, give him to me
I believe in to let a little sunshine in my life
I believe in him and me
My vacation is gonna be pleasant memory
I will have him everyday

I believe in to let a little sunshine in my life
I believe in him and me
My vacation is gonna be a pleasant memory
I will have him everyday"

The Star Being Experience

[JAAJ]

- YouTube

„You can shine forget about the reasons why you can’t in life, and start to try 'cause it’s your time, time to fly„

[JAAJ]

George S. Clinton - Helicopter / Franklin Gets It

[JAAJ]

Cyberman - Hotline

[JAAJ]

The Substance (Original Motion Picture Score)