Resonating with many of the great posts here.
As already said in don’t know which threads, I’ve been to therapy several times. By a sense of duty. But mostly with some shitty egoic megalomania, like “I have surely spent more years studying human psychology than this loser trying to therapize me right now, hohoho. I know best”.
No wonder that a therapist friend of mine had diagnosed me as a covert narcissist lol.
Thanks to some things (including Dreamweaver’s work), I’m getting better at not identyfying too much with my current borrowed ego. Just trying to keep it clean until the day I return it back to where it belongs, etc.
The above preliminary was to confirm that yes, we definitely need some external validation/support/etc. from time to time, even when not accepting what is told or shown. Then we can get back to the shitty “I know best hohoho” and discover that indeed, we know best, but not in a competitive way. Not better than someone else. If it makes sense.
Coming back to the field: I’m using it several times a day with a focus on 2 topics that keep bothering me, but with much less intensity and emotional charge. Now they are more like “Alright, I learned to move on and live with this material. But logically asking: why did those topics/things stick with me? I mean there was no reason for them to be”.
When I ask those questions to the field, I notice that it replicates the physical sensations that I’ve had in the past. Regarding the topics in question. For example, my heart and stomach get sort of squeezed (just like in the past). But then, the field unlocks those areas. I’m not saying this lightly, it’s not like the beginning of a progress. No, it unlocks to the bone.
So it sort of gives at a glance the before and the after of one’s issue.
Also, the field holds my hands in a very simiar way to what I experienced with one of the galactic fields, months ago. Back then, I had burst in tears and told the Alien dudes “I’m a lone wolf at heart but I would almost pay millions for that kind of sincere presence or lasting sincerity, I’m sick of human bullshit games and imbroglios” and so on (insert soap opera music).
But what I replied to this field holding my hands was more like: “I’m only responsible for my own sincerity and faithfulness over time. And being a human is not that bad after all, lots of fancy and vanity stuff to sweet-stupidly laugh about. And that’s enough for now.”
The field is also a detector of wannabe empathy or drama: when I consult with it about pseudo-problems, saying “yes yes, I’m very concerned and worried about X or Y”, it kind of beeps me and makes me understand that no, deep inside, I’m not worried at all by X or Y, not even giving a dime about them actually. Ooops…
So again, there’s a matter of sincerity. But above all to one’s ownself, of course.
And of course, a great mood-stabilizer that I use along a few of the older fields.