Your write the word “addiction” three times, so I will recommend to you 3 fields to overcome this addiction, the self-esteem will come with:
-The devil reversed(30 min a day at the beginning)
https://forum.enlightenedstates.com/t/new-release-the-devil-reversed-tarot-archetype/13843
-Overcome any addiction( that Milamber recommend), this audio is really good, it repairs your dopamine receptor and “The fields embedded in this audio works with your subconscious to give you the inner strength and will power to overcome your addictions”. Inner strength from the subconscious,“relapsing” is not possible when you have the subconsicous on your side
https://forum.enlightenedstates.com/t/overcome-any-addiction-dopamine-receptor-repair-addiction-healing/34674
-Pietersite energy, to destroy thoughforms, it can be very taxing in your system but it’s very worth it
In a short time, you will be free