I’m not invalidating your experience. I know you experience these negative energies from people quite often. And you are self aware enough to realize that you have some deeper traumas that have instigated this sort of thing into your subconscious/aura. I think that is what you need to work on most, as these repressed energies within you are going to continue attracting things that reflect it in some sort of way. It’s in a way, your soul manifesting this inner issue of yours so that you can overcome it. Whatever repression is in us will always find a way to manifest in our lives.
And healing that, is going to help you be unphased by other people’s feelings and energy. Cause really, as I said, someone’s intentions or feelings about you shouldn’t bother you (unless someone intends to do you harm). If someone feels negatively about you, that’s literally their problem. Especially if they don’t even know you. When you get the energy, accepting it and just being like ‘okay’ isn’t a matter of having compassion.
It’s just a matter of inner aclhemy. Of taking the energy they give you and neutralizing it. Negativity and positivity are in essence, a matter of perception considering both are degrees of the same energy. How you percieve it, is how it effects you. So when you recieve this uncomfotrable feeling of rejection/ dislike, accepting it just makes it… neutral. Not something that affects you and so you have the space to focus on other things. But if you automatically judge it as negative and feel negative and horrible about it… you constrict your inner space as you are focusing on the energy and giving it power. And so it just penetrates your aura with ease.
I know I speak of acceptance and love a lot. And I’m rather sure a number of people here in the forum think it to be nonsense or inapplicable to their situation and so on. But those are two very essential aspects of inner alchemy. Acceptance is neutralizing an energy. Love is to transform an energy to a ‘positive’ one. Hate/rejection is to repress an energy into a ‘negative’ state.
I put quotations around positivity and negativity because I personally don’t like to judge one as bad or good. They just are. But we get caught up in the judgements and those judgements end up defining our experience of reality. Often for the worst.
I think this is a part of spirituality that really doesn’t get taught enough. People will tell you to get protection, invoke angels and a whole bunch of other things but never teach you that energy responds to perception.