Guys @Denish @okl
While what you are feeling is normal i understand that is unpleasant and something you dont want to deal with, this is like when you discover something rotten deep in the garbage bin you didnt know it was there and when you pull it out the smell is awful and gets all over your place, causes you want to throw up etc and the image of it is awful…
Same with this, but in the case of the garbage what would you do?
Clean fast and use other elements to help you get rid of the smell and the nasty stuff attached to the bottom of them bin, wash your hands, properly pack the rotten stuff and throw them away far from you right?
And thats what you need to do,
First dont loop it much the more you loop it the more deep buried garbage is gonna come out, so go slowly maybe a couple of times a day then right after play Crucible, Emotional Release, Become whole and the new one brain magnetic stimulation, even justice for all could give you a lot of peace and strength to let go, nothing in the universe goes unnoticed, but you will focus on your healing to have a happy bright future, let life give to each other what is for them, thats none of your business believe it or not.
If you can buy the heart coherence or shamanic blend would be a good addition.