Random thoughts thread

Opinion is Shiva is the only God I ever resonated with or felt was real. Opinion.

Now, it seems I was wrong.

Another opinion is I resonate with Saraswati. TM mantras are Saraswati mantras…I like the mantras I’m supposed to do when I’m older, not now, but whatever…they were a sect anyway xD

Another opinion is if Kali doesn’t kick your ass, then you can get into anything you want. You started the house by the roof so xD

And another opinion is Yoga Sutras of Pantajali and even Hatha Yoga Pradipika are good. Sri Aurobindo writings too. Those are my references but I have a list somwhere, of high consciousness books written by gurus.

The Cloud of Unknowing is one such book…but coming from a medieval christian mystic. But cool stuff…and easy to remember vs the sanskrit or hindi name of the other books xD

Also as a kid I read everything I could on yoga. Now I forgot cause of bad memory and stuff. Hinduism is massive, hard to understand. You’re gonna have to take the jump.

I get you though. Many people actually feel the same. You can see it in any ashram. People know they followed instructions and were initiated and they are in more control of their life and themselves…but not quite understanding why yet.

The dissonance will stay there until you become the gruruji yknow.

Nope…couldn’t commit to anything right now. Besides I’m using fields…it is already a lot as it is…don’t wanna mix more.

I have this conflict of rejecting deities and disliking them (for about a year) then I feel like they are welcoming again and I get interested in them (for about another year). And so goes my life.

Last time I was in bad suffering…I don’t think I felt any comfort coming from the gods and I relied on them cause I had nothing else then.

The problem is you can’t rely in your own consciousness or awareness when you’re messed…you’re stuck with your mind. So you need an external power. So being in good terms with deities is always good.

I think fields work every time, Dream did some alchemy or magick. So even if deities are testing you, at least we can alway use the yagnas and homans, etc.

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Only weed.

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weed good

instead of touching grass is smoking grass

good for lungs, it grounds them

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if field isnt smart you will be looking like Tarzan xD

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did you watch the show?

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you know she had some alien dna mods…it was Montauk come on

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@Atreides how it goes with knight?

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Yeah I don’t know her that well and I don’t come from that background
But I still have a lot of respect for her (even conceptually).
At one point I suspected I was going through a kundalini awakening and I even ‘invoked’ her and asked her to kindly not let me get f* up.

Well I come from a christian background and I’ve been sort of at odds with ‘God’.
I do perceive ‘gods’ and such as ‘stepping stones’, as even Sadhguru would put it.
A higher consciousness/archetype that one can ‘access’ perhaps, to help in their journey.
Though ultimately, not ‘the ultimate truth’.
But let’s say… a more evolved aspect that one might ‘tap into’ when needed (if deemed worthy perhaps). Not to be worshiped though, imo. Hence the internal dilemma. Fear of falling for dogma again. While at the same time, deities can be of help, as evolved aspects of… something something about us ultimately.

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ye

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people want to worship God because they experiences the grace

if you seen a God in your room right now the energy it will exude will make you instantly go and worship him.

It’s not like you should first believe. Believing is a guide to knowledge not some kind of a habit that is the end goal.

Don’t worry about it when time comes you will worship yourself. Because you will feel the blessings that God gave to you. Like opportunities that are bended for your own benefit or the life that you have.

Stuff happens in a lifetime of a human, being open minded isn’t just to be accepted by some society or another human or whatever. Is to recieve what you were meant to be then continue that path to know more and more and more and more. Till of course you meet God too.

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Which, I thought of,
I read in a book on tantra something along the lines of ‘To worship / bow to me is to recognize the God that is within me that is also within you’ – to recognize yourself, ultimately. TMI, but the connection I made at that time was in regards to lovemaking. And love, in general. Have not gotten to the ‘general’ aspect yet.

But I sense that it ultimately leads to this →

And, as I have been doing much shadow work, it seems like much of the source of my ‘karma’ comes from, ultimately, not knowing / forgetting who/what I really am (which, being born on this plane tends to do (?))

There is this sense, that even my body reacts to, that I can’t quite grasp yet, more like an intuition,
that ultimately
I am God

Nonetheless, seems like this is a conflict to be resolved: the god/deities one. It’s, as @JAAJ would put it, a ‘cheat code’. It’s just been weighting on my mind to not as easily accept it, though I perhaps should, as my ‘awakening’ went hand in hand with realizing I grew up in a cult. Insert ‘when you see it you’ll shit bricks’ meme. Sure, afterwards, it’s not hard to see how we all grow up / live in various type cults. It seems like such a slippery slope, to lose one’s power… I sense it, the danger, the siren-like voices, the ‘drive’ to renounce your Self in order to worship another ‘power’

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I don’t mean to worship youself, you are human. You yourself will worship God

ultimately there are many theories that we here to learn to become a universe on our own. Do I know that? not really, so I go with what I know. I felt the grace of the God it’s wonderful and of course you want to bow down to it. It’s God.

So don’t get me wrong,that’s my belief and don’t want to keep you back from exploring.But I think worshiping yourself is not good, not even bad. Not even worst. You will worship someone that has a fault, that didn’t invent nor gravity nor nature nor light nor darkness nor anything. If all of these are within you is another story. But I worship the one that created all and most likely it’s not me because if it was me you are all f-ed up here xD

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I mean more towards the source/God that is expressing itself through me. Not in an ego-type way. More in an essence way

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yes yes that works

thing is that I don’t even want to think about those stuff anymore

you know I started understand people that seem crazy to others when they tell about metaphysical stuff and all those. I understood completely that those are bullshit because they started believing something and the belief came to be their new reality. That reality is complete false. Complete complete. If not working, if not done and have structure to it, to be sustained by itself is false.

Like let’s say putting their own terms. Telling that one can achieve this or that without having any achievement to that. Like using terms from all kind of occult stuff when they are not even know what they doing, just reading stuff here and there. Like losing control over one self because of the obsession of being right.

All those understandable states that a human has, like always we are humans, can’t really deny it, except if you stopped being a human after some point as I can predict.

So I would make a suggestion after those things I said. But I just wanted to put it out and you make your own decisions after that.

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As in,
in my current understanding/view
I am a branch of God
A nuance of its essence
It’s in my veins.
It’s an aspect of it.
It’s a neural pathway in a larger brain

I am Divine.
Whether I recognize it or not.
And you are also Divine.

So when you meet someone that awakens Love into you, or a guru, or some enlightened being
It’s simply mirroring to you
Yourself
That which you could not see
But
Yourself
Otherwise, you would not see it.
Even with stuff we don’t like; shadows.
It seems like it’s all a mirror.
Some say that God is trying to find out about its own damn self through us.

Just as with drugs, really
We’re reacting to THC because we’ve got receptors to it.
You’re (generally) reacting to stuff I say because there is something to it, deep inside you.

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yes I thought about that too. I mean it’s pretty clear it’s true because of all the brain related fields that are out.

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what is drift writing all that time?

today he is slow

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One thing I won’t deny is that…
It’s definitely what society would consider to be the at least close to insane side of the spectrum.
This whole thing we’re on here.
Complete opposite to the norm.
And yet
Logically speaking
I have reached the conclusion that there is no other sensible way
Than to try it out
To venture into the unknown.
At the end of the day…
It’s my universe, my life, and I’m the last one to turn off the lights as far as I’m concerned
We all know, and can see, where the ‘official’ rules for life are leading to

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the energy of the movie (and all Tarantino movies?) is apathy…just saying

artistic and good story telling and everything but after it you may not feel good…i dont know if movie energy levels affect us now, that we have shielding and stuff

this is art 0.0

they could actually make VR stuff instead of 3d stuff about vr but welp xD

these guys should make some guided visualizations (a tree of life journey or smth) in VR for real

i hate how temperature here is raising already too…i want winter till september xD

sometimes the forum glitches and shows someone is writing but they arent

i went to do star exercise and stuff xD

same

it is also the parental archetype though

i kindly disagree

there is bhakti yoga…you can’t worship yourself as that is the downward path yknow…so you need to worship something as impersonal…can be god, or even your own kundalini, cause it feels like the inner mother, but not “you”

but yes it is about archetypes, cause worshipping them is fine…but if you worship the wrong aspect of the self you’re wrecked…unless you intentionally wanted to take that path

this is near inexistent in hinduism…if you were looking for dogma you wouldnt even find it…if you find it, it is some greedy guru…time to jump boat

swear to god i will never understand this expression, sorry xD

essence of faith and prayer may get you there faster. really like that field and how it felt once…probably should loop and meditate to it when i get in those bad states of uncertainty

honestly this makes me uncomfortable…the way you/that author puts it

But I’m not gonna play with words here. You will see what you need when you need.

But alas, Wild Nights by David Deida I think could be a better tantra book…sort of.

No way you can read that book without relating to the characters and feeling some intense pain at some point. That book is like a list of triggers to work through xD

this is what we all struggle with…ask your higher self if this isn’t part of the design cause thats what i think…we are made to suffer until we search for the spiritual…but that is kinda like cheating but otherwise we are too off-path

im not gonna word play with you here…i go through phases of that too…i guess it is necessary to own yourself and your power more

I think in hinduism, (edited)

well man all i can say is they put some beauty in their philosophies and then their “mythology” too

I sent a song in the song thread, saying it was eye-opening to me…cause it is a damn lullaby sung to an unborn baby and it is highest consciousness/quality philosophy you can put into words…i was like…no wonder indians are so smart, man

also i dunno about your cult but yes…society right now is pretty much a simulation for totalitarism (“simulation”) and they seem to not see it…i live in fear and these mofos are all gucci

corrected stuff

you guys dont need my opinion xD

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He’s the reason why I’m still around. I should get to sleep
Waiting for you @Drift
But also not pressuring you xo

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