What are you, 3? - the thumb is just to make a denser connection to the field - keeping it on the screen is enough, and with enough time you can even close your eyes and hold the field’s signature in your mind’s eye.
It should feel like bliss and purging.
Oh, and lots of tingles and vibration.
What if it’s too much
I am shaking, if that counts
Just be reasonable and when it gets overwhelming pull back, and build your capacity with time.
A good mantra to do after you finish is:
Arut Perum Jyothi. Arut Perum Jyothi. Thani Perum Karunai . Arut Perum Jyothi.
Maybe for 5 minutes or 108 times, mentally or out loud, doesn’t matter.
Aha
Found the website
Thank you!
Lots of school works put me under a lot of stress. But, after I finished it all, the boredom of doing nothing makes me depressed.
It’s like I’m missing the stress and the pressure that came from doing lots of work. I’m also addicted at bullet chess (1+0 or less). It’s like I’m addicted to time pressure but I don’t like it at all, but doing nothing feels miserable either. Pick your poison.
This Grace-Light isn’t non-duality. It is a distinct thing?
It’s pure awareness - when nothingness becomes aware of itself.
It’s not even a specific thing - Grace Light is a process in of itself that encompasses three components.
What is acting as an object and a subject of awareness if there is nothing to reference either?
There is not a mention of it in the website I found…guess I have to dig deeper.
Welp I tried but I can’t put my thoughts in order, let alone into words now u.u
I felt an interest in Awareness Watching Awareness…like 2 days after I’ve done this mantra. But I also used SZ field and a non-duality emanation thingy.
And…yeah I became aware SZ released this just the next day after I did the mantra (I don’t usually do it…was in trance, trying to remember every mantra I know and doing some repetitions of every hyper-high-vibes one)…and here I am now.
So, I was going to drop everything for pure awareness (which I know in practice, I can’t do xD), and you tell me this mantra is for pure awareness…
God ain’t even amused while I’m a joke…
That only comes into existence after nothingness becomes aware of itself - before that, there is nothing.
It is the alpha and the omega.
Well I’ve experienced consciousness with no subject. For an instant…then when that awareness happens, a moment later comes an I…and trips nuts and panics because compared to infinity (what you were aware of for a moment) it is non-existent so it clings to life.
And this was just a mental orgasm xD…so I can only imagine how deep it goes. At leat, before the fall, the infinity I experienced was pleasure.
Intellectualizing this simply won’t work, as it is a realization which equates to omniscience, omnipotence and omnipresence.
What use is intellect from that stage?
Why a starting point? Has it ever became? Is there time? Why has it not always been aware of itself?
Nothingness is always becoming aware of itself.
Why not already fully aware forever?
