Well I’ve experienced consciousness with no subject. For an instant…then when that awareness happens, a moment later comes an I…and trips nuts and panics because compared to infinity (what you were aware of for a moment) it is non-existent so it clings to life.
And this was just a mental orgasm xD…so I can only imagine how deep it goes. At leat, before the fall, the infinity I experienced was pleasure.
Intellectualizing this simply won’t work, as it is a realization which equates to omniscience, omnipotence and omnipresence.
What use is intellect from that stage?
Why a starting point? Has it ever became? Is there time? Why has it not always been aware of itself?
Nothingness is always becoming aware of itself.
Why not already fully aware forever?
It is. You just don’t understand what “Now” actually means.
Do you?
Lol.
Come on
I’ll leave things as is. I am not a guru. Whatever you do with this, wherever you go with it, is on you.
If you want someone else to spoon-feed you gnosis, join a religion or a political party - leave me out of it.
Do the 16personalities test
MBTI?
I’ve done it a few times
Are there 24 weaknesses test
Those already look like weaknesses 
But in that website, no
Lmao😭
My heart aches
Depression 
What was it
