That’s even better !!!
Trust me change your perspective on these things that means when you do experience these things it will have so much more meaning to it it’s like if you eat your favourite food all the time it gets boring… Imagine if you could go back to eating it for the first time!
I suppose this is very optimistic way of looking at it i understand your finding it painful it will pass you are never truly alone we are all one.
Your currently making more progression in a week then most do in a year remember that see this as your time in the cacoon waiting to come out an flourish in the world… your becoming a new you that’s clear your making amazing progress don’t doubt it because you haven’t got everything you want yet. You don’t read the first few pages of a book an moan that you don’t know the whole book yet do you…