Lately
I pay way too much attention to what a specific coworker does and doesn’t do and it comes to the point where I’m wasting so much energy on being angry annoyed and upset because I’m putting in so much effort to keep things running but they laze around, spend the whole work day sitting and chatting around and they get away with it
Our new boss is very close with her
To the point where we all know as soon as the coworker sees or hears something we can be sure our boss will know it in a few seconds
This situation has been getting worse
Especially as other colleagues are calling in sick
and I have been busting my ass for the past six months, working overtime, too
Feels like I’m made out of anger, stress and annoyance lately
I already put in a complain with the manager
I’m tired
I try to tell myself that she will reap what she sows
But it’s not easy when my friends are burning out because we have to pick up her slack
But I don’t want to be angry anymore. I wish I could let go and be unbothered. But as soon as I am at work even the small things upset me
I’ve been clashing with my boss and the coworker lately because I can’t keep the anger fully under control anymore
I tried repel negativity, ego dissolution, anger management, internal alchemical crucible, conceptual realisations
But those feelings won’t go away. It’s slowly poisoning me