Its ok Lisa. As i said, you are new to the forum.
We dont even know if you have ever used Sapien, but we will always be here to help, and everybody is welcome, at the end situations like this might accidentally put you on better hands to change things in your life.
So being here is not a coincidence, and you are welcome to stay.
You can check these posts to learn more about the forum and i really hope you get better.