@anon22855873, have you thought about sharing it on the forum?
@Dewbob I think the best free basic recommendation is the Point of no return stack + ego dissolution in the mix.
You can add the Star exercise as per the topic here on the forum - it’s pretty quick to you have nothing to lose by practicing.
Focusing on the inside will also make the physical fields work better for you on the long run
As for the Aliens… what do you all think? Have you had experience with the energy infusion meditations, maybe the tags?
Do you feel drawn to any “area”?
I feel drawn to Dream’s sirian works, but I definitely don’t “identify” with it, like I don’t think I’m “sirian” or whatever… at least from what I heard they.are mostly 6th density and I don’t have illusions :)