Warning: This is not a testimonial yet. I’ve postponed the purchase (only for a few days: waiting for the new month budget, etc.). So sorry in advance if it looks like a speculative post.
I dreamed of Dreamweaver 2 nights ago. It happens sometimes. He looks like his profile pic but with black hair and beard. Anyway. In the last dream, he was trying to organize a birthday party for me at his place. A dream rich in details but I won’t go into them. The main theme is self-explanatory in itself. Deeply resonating with the rebirth analogies of some members’ testimonials in this thread.
Speaking of testimonials, many have been already helpful (thank you). Especially the lines below (I owe Pia for many other directions that she has shown in other threads as well):
As a matter of fact, I realize that I’ve been “patchworking” so far. Years ago, I have had the opportunity to study dance/movement psychotherapy with an incredible trainer (or should I say witch, wizard…?). Good old Atreides knows well what my colleagues and I have “endured” with her :)) She was the first one to push me to explore my stubbornly shut spiritual side. I mean… How many folks make dance their students with giant-sized tarot cards? Stuff like that. Indoors AND outdoors. The streets and inhabitants of my town still remember those days :))
I’ve started meditating + do other stuff thanks to her. And indeed, I have disintegrated at times. Afterwards, I’ve managed to put the pieces back together… With Sapien fields as well. A solidly sewed patchwork but still a patchwork… not a total whole.
And my proud not totally false (but still false) selfego saying: “Hehe… You don’t beat me, life. You always ask me to put myself together after shit and stand back on my feet with my nose facing the ceiling? Standing for MY (!!!) opinions, opening MY (?!!) mouth? Without being a sheep? There you go. Watch my splendor, then. Watch my misdirected carelessness”.
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What I’m trying to say throughout this blabla is that this time, I want to honor such a major field. Without doing the mistakes that I’ve done with Vibration of Creation for example. Because as a matter of fact, I’ve always hidden behind huge resistance (_OM was right), despite my respect for Dreamweaver’s work or that trainer that I was mentioning above. And behind contradictions, lack of faith… or whatever. As if thinking deep inside “these guys are cool, they allow me to melt in something for a while… but hey. I hope that they won’t destroy all the stuff (?!!) that I’ve spent decades to build. Do they? I’ll sew it back, hohoho.”
So in sum: this time, I’m taking these few days as an opportunity to prepare the ground. With Echoes of the Past, Depths of Your Soul, Hermit, Essence of Mantras, to name a few. Or preparing the house for an awaited loved one. To fully appreciate the meeting or the reunification.
Wanted to share this pre-testimonial.
Deep thanks (in advance) _OM, Sammy and Dreamweaver. In case I don’t come back to write the experience per se.