Another quick update:
Tricky todayā¦ first there was emotional detox. It was not that harsh, it felt like stuff was bubbling up ever so slowly and gently to the surface, as if pre-prepared to be processed. This was clearly the time to stay in close contact with servitors and deities, so I did just that and consulted the Beast of the End, which helped speed up the process tremendously and I was happy to find i could easily work with the stuff and let it go, integrate the new me very very quickly. I also noticed the importance of sticking to your inner foundational values, so you donāt get swayed away by odd thoughts. Shortly thereafter, I felt seriously better, with a more refined natural confidence that felt more āsaturatedā, as if sth got fixed or updated - pretty awesome! Aside from that, I also had physical detox via the digestionā¦Still, I noticed some skin issues healing, and that I need more food overall. Also noticed the music sounded very different in a meditative state.
So quite the up and down you could say. Anyways, these are my observations