It’s been a few days since I’ve started working with this. Yet I’m amazed by the fact that how can something that is not made by dream be so effective!? I’m still surprised to admit that it’s been more effective for me than any other things I’ve ever used for shadow work! And believe it or not it’s actually a lot better than anything you’ll ever find from “other” creator. I’ve left the forum in the past but have been visiting very often almost on a daily basis without any profile. I’ve seen many amazing things going on and many projects but never bothered for anything. But this time it’s a bit different. I’m been getting so much positive impact from this that I thought it would be a crime not to thank him personally for this. So when I made this account the first thing I did is that I thanked him for this gift in private beacuse that was my intention to begin with. Then I was suggested to share my story with everyone. So whoever is reading this you should definitely give this one a go because it can save you from lots of trouble that you’d never even imagine. Now many of you might be wondering “why bother?” Well because why not?
Well first let me tell you why I even got started with this type of work to begin with and why you should bother about removing all the obstacle that’s holding you back. And why should you care. It all started with my obsession of power. By power I don’t mean money or social status. But psychic and metaphysical abilities. I’ve been using ipf, conceptual realization or whatever thing is available for these purpose. But I had a fatal flaw that I had to work on first. Which was a mind that is restless. Or just hyperactive in a sense. Now you might think what’s wrong with that? Aren’t we all like this logically? Well that’s true but in order to understand a specific concept one must know how to silent ones thought and to understand what’s your thought and what not. On paper this sounds simple but let me as you that “How can someone determine between what’s his and what’ doesn’t belong to him if the person doesn’t even know who he is in essence?” Didn’t understand? Well no problem keep reading. So I was sick of all failed attempts and all and decided to get a “specific” answer for what should I be working on. So I decided to ask a friend of mine who was naturally born with psychic abilities and had the ability to communicate with angles and other beings that “can you ask your angels what’s preventing me from manifesting my powers?” So she checked and told me “it’s the burden, guilt and your own shadow that you have” I didn’t understand properly at that time but at least realized that I need to work on these things. So that was the time when I started cleaning up all the junk that I had in myself. And also she told me to use “the devil” from energetic alchemy. And it’s description is " The reversed Devil card can often appear when you are on the verge of a break-through or an up-levelling. You are being called to your highest potential, but first, you must let go of any unhealthy attachments or limiting beliefs that may hold you back. Often, when you are called to something ‘more’, you must deal with your shadows before you can step into this new version of yourself. It may be an addiction, unhealthy relationships, or a disengaging career, Let go of fear and release any self-imposed limiting beliefs standing in the way of your growth. It is easier than you realize" so you might be wondering that what this has to do with all of this? well let’s say if you have a land for example and you want to build a house. But it’s full of junk and it has been like this for many years since it was never cleaned. So it’s obvious what you must do at the start. And in general I’m the type of guy that will get the work done no matter how painful it is and how hard it is. Beacuse once I decide something I just do it and I was completely determined that I’ll become a psychic master no matter what it takes! One of my respected senior also told me earlier that “whatever you carry is not good” so I’ve decided to take it seriously and started digging into it. But what happened next was unexpected. I thought that I’ve done most of the work that’s related to shadow aspect. And you’ve probably been told your entire life that “time heals all the wounds” ah the greatest lie ever told. If anything those wounds and trauma only ages like fine wine. And the worst cause? It even manifests into your consciousness and in your physical body in forum of certain illness. Then I realized that many issue that I was having is due to the debris that I was carrying. For the worst cause I realized that it was not only affecting my mind and body but consciousness and energy body as a whole and my entire reality itself. So basically time heals nothing it just surpasses and helps to forget. But guess what? There’s a huge difference between not facing something and facing something and letting go. You could say that these things are stuck on you like “debt” that keeps increasing overtime even before you realize. And guess what? When I started to clean them up and tried to face them I realized nothing actually changed. The pain that was caused feels almost the same till this very day with no exception. To add more it ended up creating much more trouble in return. Only if it was possible to get rid of this then I would be at a much better position. On the other hand I can safely say that at least 90 percent of you had a better childhood than I had so the amount of stuff I had stuck in was huge. It also manifested as negative beliefs and physical/ mental condition. And what’s worse? Is that I don’t even “consciously” remember many things. Now that sounds good doesn’t it? Cuz if I don’t remember then I don’t have to face them or think about them right? Wrong. But why? Well, what do you think your subconscious mind does? Does it ever “forgets” or sleeps when you forget or fall asleep? No it doesn’t. So it’s like being bothered by things that you are not even consciously aware of. Which makes it worse than anything. All those things manifested into some bad habits and different personalities. So what’s the way to fix this? Well you need to communicate with your subconscious. And how can you do that? By becoming more psychically advanced. And what’s necessary for that? Is to clean up everything that’s holding it back. And to do that you must master yourself. So due to all the things I’ve had I just set one thing in my mind. That no matter whatever happens I’ll do whatever it takes to make myself feel fulfilled cuz I’m sick of all these nonsense. But I won’t harm anyone in the process. Also when it comes to self development and growth you must be greedy no matter what. Cuz in the end of the day you’re responsible for your life. You were born alone and you’ll die alone. So if there’s anyone that can change you is you. By knowing that I kept going on this path. I did everything possible to clean everything away. Was it fun? Nah it sucked at the start at least. But did I give up cuz of that? Well definitely not. And this is were 98 percent people fails that they have the tendency to “run away” from things that is painful for them. It’s something I’ve also learned from my past experiences not to long ago. And guess what? That’s something that your ego wants you to do not you. Beacuse your “subconscious mind” always tries to find your “comfort zone” however possible. But my mindset is a bit different. I’m the type of guy who is willing to stab where it hurts if that’s necessary. So I forced it as much as possible until I reach the breaking point. As days were passing I was getting more used to this and it doesn’t feel uncomfortable anymore because I learned to observe rather than reacting. The truth is that it’s your ego who reacts based on your beliefs and certain programming not you. And overtime I am learning to have “conscious grip” over my consciousness with this. And I’ve probably lost half of my identity on my way of becoming “Nobody”
. so I asked myself what do I really seek? And my main goal from the very start was freedom. And that’s the answer I got. To be free from any kind of need, desire and any attachments that ties me down. Being a self sustaining being that relies on no one. No identifying with literally anything in existence. Just being myself. Slowly I started giving up literally everything. Greed, needs, desires, and everything. Why? Cuz desire is suffering. Every desire you have is an access to where you will suffer. Why desire when you can just have it? I’m even letting go of my desires of fields in general and whatever that I like in general. Cuz just existing as “you” and be happy by just “doing nothing” is priceless. This pleasure is more than anything you’ll ever experience in your lifetime. Just IMAGINE wanting or needing something to be happy. Reality is subjective to the observer. It just reflects your own emotions back at you. It doesn’t judge what’s good, bad, right or wrong. And your subconscious mind is nothing but a broken record that just repeats the same pattern and belifes over and over at an unconscious manner. Because most things you do is out of impulse bit not in a conscious manner unless you’ve masteed your mind. A good example is checking phone every day after waking up. So all those negative things you have in yourself will forever make you act in a certain way unconsciously unless you consciously deal with it. So after realizing this I started my journey of self exploration.
WHY BOTHER?
Well let me ask you do you think you can really just “get away” with the unfinished business that you have left? Nah not at all. It will always leave a mark regardless unless you take care of it. Can you just destroy your memory of past? No. Hypothetically speaking, energy cannot be destroyed it can be converted. So you can’t do anything about your past and everything you’ve experienced. But what you can do is to accept as how it is and forgive yourself. And replace the energy with love and compassion. But of course that’s your choice how you want to live your life. You either live free or live with burden for your entire life. Also don’t forget you’ll be living this life once only. Let’s say you are Pablo in this life or avarage joe or maybe random josh but in next life you won’t be the same. You’ll probably live one life as joe or josh. And no matter who you are on this life it will definitely affect your next one. So be mindful of that. I’ve also realized that until now I had some kind of “victim mentality” but subconsciously. Like why this happens to me? Then I reaslised it’s my own mind thats messing around with me. And I’m glad that I’ve learned this at 23 years of age rather than being in 40s. I’d like to thank captain for that. I doubt it would be possible otherwise. Should the day ever come when you’ll not be around us. But I have no regrets meeting you. You’ll forever shine like gold in my memory. I’m really excited to see what lies ahead in my journey
Whats my experience with this tool?
I’ve started the game for a few days and it’s phenomenal. I honestly never used any tool in my life that has been this good for shadow work. I feel lot more free than I was ever before and it’s been working better for me than any spiritual field I tried for whatever reason. Again that’s my subjective experience. As someone who seeks liberation ,pure freedom and detachment from anything in existence nothing could be better than this. I feel like a completely different person than I was just a few days ago. Even when I’m writtng this I’m working with this. Feels like it can be accessed any time anyhow you wish. I’m planning to make this a lifetime routine if needed. For some reason I was drawn in this game and I was never a fan of long post either. But I read everything you wrote very carefully for more than an hour knowing how effective it is. For the first time I’m feeling like I’m very close to achieve my goals. All the tools I’ve used until now just gave momentary relief but this one feels on a different level than anything I’ve used. I feel like even if I give up on every other tools and only focus on this it would suffice. I’m really looking forward to see what you will work on in future. I’d always be glad to play and do experiment with them. Because I’m really having fun with the current one and for me it’s a bit addictive lol. Whenever I wish to focus it just simply happens in one tap for me using this tool. Normally any negative emotion is just stuck in my heart area and slowly it fades away. Honestly it makes my work 100x easier. The more I let go the cleaner I become and much lighter is the feeling. It’s also rising my overall vibration level and which gives me a feeling of bliss in my body and mind
Again thank you for your contribution in the community. I’m certain my life would never be the same after this. @anon22855873 and I’m greatful for your love and support.
Overall I believe it can help me achive my spiritual goal very fast. I’d say this tool has made it 100x easier and I’ve never been this close from getting it done. What I did in a month was nothing compared to what I’ve delt with in a few days with this tool. If you don’t believe me test it out for yourself ofc. Really funny how things can change. And if any of you are feeling hopeless in life just know there’s always hope in no matter what you do. Don’t let yourself down into the darkness. Generally speaking, the concept of darkness is non-existent in a sense. It’s simply the absence of light in my opinion. You can shine so beight that will whipe out every bit of darkness that’s in you. And for that you must put effort on yourself. Whoever is willing to participate good luck to you all. And it may be uncomfortable for some but I’m sure you’re get through it. Cuz there’s always sunshine after storm. Just let it rain. And what’s hilarious to me is that it was my desire which led me this way but now it is I who is letting go of all the desires. Sometimes your weakness can be your greatest ally. Don’t treat is as your enemy. Treat is as an indicator that can show you the right path. Use everything for your advantage even if you don’t like it if necessary. And whatever you do…do it with a purpose. what will be yours? Whatever it may be I’m sure this tool will help to to figure that out.
(Everything I wrote is my subjective view. I don’t mean to criticize anyone’s perspective)
Its not easy so far, but I will continue working on it as long as I need. I also have concluded that I have a blocked heart. I have a lot of heaviness and pain around my heart and find it really difficult to feel the light. I mostly feel heaviness when I focus on my chest. Will try to ask the light to help me let go of that blockage and heavy feelings.
A true aha moment for me reading your words!
. Thank you for playing.
. Interesting