HPPv2 Day 3
Did you do your cycles of Amygdala and Releasing? What did you experience?
There were a lot of blockages, which was surprising, given that I felt I had released a lot yesterday. I continued to work on these ‘stuck’ areas with “Silent Feeling”, then the random-word, and then shining love and joy into it. At first, there was a lot of bliss. Then as I discovered more throughout the body (throat, chest, inside, outside, top, bottom, front, solar plexus, navel, gut, sacral, root region), the bliss intensified. But what was interesting was that even the buzzing blissfulness started to feel like it was excessive, and it made way into glowing peacefulness… It was like a soft, cool glow, like taking a nice stroll down the park. It was like the body was filling with soft joyfulness, exactly like a container.
Did you do your Candle Exercise? How did you find it/ Is it getting easier?
Yes, but there was still wavering and turbulence going on here and there. At a certain point, I realised that it was a bit like the HPP protocol, in the sense that it was “Silent Seeing” instead of “Silent Feeling”. That raw, before-thought experiencing of the flame (moving around or whatever) that comes before thoughts, or is right there in the gap just after a thought disappears. Just keeping in that unfiltered, unedited one-ness before a label comes up to describe it as a flame. I haven’t experienced a “oneness” with the flame itself yet, so will need to practice on that. Again, time appeared to fly and I sat for an extra few minutes after the 10.
Did you run cycles on your Goal Releasing? What did you experience?
I did this straight after the fear releasing because I felt like it was synergistic. I said “Body” internally and watched for any responses in the body as kinesthetic feelings. Sure enough, certain tightness, stagnations, pain, fear, palpitations, physiological responses started to arise in various portions of the body, after which a thought would arise in attempt to describe it. But then the labels don’t even matter anymore because what would be more direct than feeling it directly and viscerally? So I did the same as the fear exercise, with random words to ‘short-circuit’ the mind’s tendency to control the situation or self-sabotage, and then sent love and peace continuously until they had no choice but to melt away.
Did you end your tasks with giving yourself Love? Did you give yourself that feeling throughout the day? How do you feel overall?
Yes. I was experimenting since yesterday and it’s definitely difficult to do it “on the go”. I also realised that a lot of people started to gather around wherever I sat. Reminded me a little of ‘energy vampires’ where they would subconsciously try to feed on the bliss. I did feel like some of the joy was being depleted. Do you have any tips on how to stop that from happening? But overall, whenever i had time alone I would then focus on releasing and shifting the polarity again and again.
Anything else you wish to add…
One thing I realised is that I would discover - quite strongly - things that resurface in daily life that I thought I had “cured” in the past. For example, suddenly my social anxiety skyrocketed. I had never trembled this much before - over a Zoom call. I mean, I constantly have to talk to many people in my work, and it felt like I had developed some kind of armor to block myself from receiving the vibes of other people. This armor gave me some kind of illusion that I was confident. Apparently these exercises are melting away that cover and exposing what I’m really feeling inside, “behind the frozen ice”. I also find it easier to show care and concern for others - but it’s almost like I’m getting more emotionally open, kind of feels like I need to find some kind of way to guard or transform whatever I’m receiving. But otherwise, just releasing again and again these layers from the past that I thought were already resolved - but actually not.
