I guess something is better than nothing…
It’s a muscle and the more you train it the easier it becomes…
Over time you’ll be able to hold in your fluids with less mental focus and more muscle contractions. 
Probably not a final solution as there’s the actual engaging in the activity through videos etc… But at least hold onto your energy.
While I can’t comment on the SR aspect, I’ve noticed that the same things can occur with fasting and other practices where some stimulation our minds are used to are removed and underlying issues that we can usually easily repress come to the surface. So I can’t help but make the connection. Usually, whatever is coming up needs to be addressed and released because even though we are not aware of their effect in our previous regular circumstances, their effects are always there, albeit more subtle.
But this may all be things you are be aware of, you seem to already have a solid physical and spiritual hygiene. If it were me, I’d make it meditation sessions where I focus solely on the anger and let it come out, without engaging the mind, until it comes to it’s natural refractory period. Using New Release - The Internal Alchemical Crucible might help 
I am way too pent up with frustration and anger. I fear that a misstep could be very costly. Please advise.
I do love that particular audio. I will try to meditate more frequently to this one as opposed to just listening. Thank you, Amber. Love the name and the color!
While I’m not a man, I have a very masculine sexuality and have had to work on frustration. Just my two cents, edging was horrible for me (I don’t know who gave me that advice but it made no sense for a woman anyway I found out afterwards), it made me super irritable and ever more frustrated. I can definitely see how it can be helpful for some who are in a more neutral place, but I think you are wise to put that one on hold ;)
My pleasure! And thank you 
Just a thought, but have you tried channelling root chakra energies upwards? I hope it’s not TMI but lately in meditation I have a lot of energy that shows up at the root chakra and it’s mighty distracting 
I’ve been given the advice to do this, but still finding my way into doing it properly. But it has helped, even when I don’t feel I do it correctly.
Lastly, if you want emotional release exercises (couldn’t resist putting the emotional in bold as a joke 
) it’d be my pleasure to send you two I really like in a PM.
You’re awesome, Amber. And yes, I’ll take all the help I can get. I too think edging might be difficult. But I am wildly irritable and find the stress of retention at times overwhelming. Frankly, I don’t particularly like this part of the spiritual journey. I have thoroughly enjoyed doing good on this planet.
But I don’t wish to have my sexual endeavors restricted or impacted. I understand curtailing them, but the energetic changes my body has undergone in the last two years in relation to sex make having a release unpleasant. And in doing so, it makes me reject my body, which I take great pride in.
All of this has really impacted my confidence. I see many people saying so many uplifting things about SR, but if I could do so without energetic and mental repercussions, I would gladly rebuke the practice. I think playful engagement with another using the vessels we were gifted (our bodies) is something special. It really sickens me that this path has been forced upon me. This whole thing has really left me with a dysmorphic view of my manhood, for a lack of a better word. Transforming from an active sexual organ to a dust collector. It’s disheartening and I really have no remedy and I have been at this exact point far too many times to count. I’m a weary traveler lost on a journey I don’t altogether understand. So thank you again for your input.
physically, mentally, emotionally, or energetically unpleasant?
It was physical blockages for a while. Now perhaps it is emotional and energetic. If I engage in sexual behavior with myself, I feel an addict who has relapsed and it’s a brutal mountain to climb. If I abstain, my creativity and productivity go way up, but there is mental pain and stress.
It feels like I am being asked to be someone I am not. I have enjoyed being a sexual being on this planet, and I don’t think there is anything wrong with two consenting adults doing their thing. I think all of it has brought about more stress than I could’ve ever imagined. There’s the pressure of abstinence, and I really don’t know how it began. It wasn’t like I needed multiple releases per day. I think I was pretty normal in that regard. It’s perplexing to not understand changes that are occurring within your own body.
I completely agree. Personally I find sex to be something very healthy (although it can be made otherwise), it’s hard to fathom that in this day and age we still adhere to completely outdated concepts of control and fear around this subject. I’m only talking of my views here and I am absolutely not saying I am right, but I don’t subscribe to the spiritual school of thought that the body must be disregarded, it seems almost absurd that we’d come here into bodies to disregard them. If we are ethereal beings spending eternity without one, it’s hard to think that as omniscient and infinite we’d think it a good idea to go have them only to…ignore them 
It rather feels that alignment of body, mind and heart is the wholesome way to go
I have a few things I’d like to add but before, I must ask, what do you mean by this path was forced upon you?
I believe I triggered a kundalini awakening by way of psylicibin. The walls of this matrix - the perception of this world - came down and I’ve undergone some interesting things that assure me I know absolutely nothing. I didn’t ask for some celibate life and nor do I want one. I too, am trying to align the body/heart/mind, while maintaining a playful, enjoyable sex life.
Quit Smoking,2.0?
Coming,or?
Important.
yeah man, tripping is tough if you dont know what you are getting yourself into, depending on the chemical, one trip, and your life will never be the same again
research, trip reports, etc in my opinion is mandatory while trying psychedelics, surprisingly (again) im also going into this journey of doing psychedelics and man, some of the stuff I read is terrifying and alleviating at the same time
Smoking? I don’t put any substances in my body. That audio works in regards to sexual desire?
I’ve had good ones and bad ones. However, I do miss the feeling of my heart center opening up wide. That was the beauty of the experience. Many moons later and some truly life changing experiences, my heart feels closed off no matter how many audios listen to, nor how many meditations I do.
I wish you well though. Please be safe and do this with a guide or someone you can trust. I’ll pray for you.
Then keep doing psychedelics, I can share with you the method I’ll be using and hopefully completely get rid of ‘bad trips’ and also enhancing and ‘adding’ intention to the trips
Have you tried Pure Magnetic Heart Coherence?
or Divine Love?
And in all honesty, I don’t think meditation will ever simulate any psychedelic trip, again depends on the chemical but truly any psychedelic does not compare to meditation(also depends on what type of meditation)
Thanks 
By all means, please do! And yes, I need to get some more mushrooms. Even if microdosing. I need my heart reopened, and to pop the fog off of a depressing year. And yes, I use Pure Magnetic Heart Coherence often. And no, as wonderful as meditation can be, it does not open my heart center the way psylicibin has in the past.
Says the man who wants to do mushrooms Sorry I jest but I understand what you meant
It may be that was meant to be posted in the field suggestion and ended up here by mistake
I so completely agree with this. With any drug really. I love drugs but I don’t put anything in my body I don’t understand (and just for the hedonism factor, good to know how things are going to go), plus by doing research it’s possible to avoid downsides, including excitotoxicity and general deficits. They’re sadly demonised in society but they aren’t at all what people make them to be. Funny enough alcohol as been repeatedly found in scientific studies as the most damaging one, but that’s legal 
Anyway, back to our scheduled programming
Aaaaaah, now I understand ok, thanks for explaining. And wow, yeah that sounds rough.
I think meditation can enhance drugs, definitely, like it can enhance everything, but I agree that nothing compares to it. In my experience and from what I have learned anyway. However, in my understanding they can act as a shortcut to bypass resistance and may be beneficial to nudge the door open. It is like I said (I think?) in your thread about weed, I think the downside is the lack of lucidity and awareness which makes it a diluted experience compared to what meditation can be and limits what can be worked on constructively.
I would love it as well please!
Again, not saying I’m right, but I think it can definitely do this with more consistence than psylicibin. Meditation is a great releasing tool, which is necessary to open the heart and free it from the repressed emotions that our dysfunctional beliefs accumulated that close it off.
Coming back to what you previously said about the issues that celibacy have triggered for you, like the impact on your confidence and dysmorphia, my impression is still, and of course take this with a grain of salt, that any issues that come up because of any practice removing stimulation/entertainment/distraction/evasion -no matter how healthy the practice is (or necessary, like eating in the case of fasting!)- is only magnifying underlying issues that were there but previously unnoticed. So basically, what is felt is the narrative we give our experiences. Emotions are just what we feel because we have opinions about the sensory data we get through our senses. Change the opinion, change the emotion.
Arousal and subsequent channelling of that energy and abstinence, is not in essence negative. It’s just “a thing that is”, for you to choose what it is for you, if that makes sense. And I’m not saying this is easy. I’m a hedonist and when I was ill, forced abstinence made me feel very similar to what you have described, I felt like part of me had died and it angered me to no end, so I wholeheartedly empathise with you. At the time, I didn’t have the tools to change my perspectives and release these feelings. But I have them now, it’ll be my pleasure to send via PM as soon as I have a bit more time to sit in front of the computer. Hopefully, they will help you as much as they helped me No one should have to go through what you are without help 
Thank you, Amber. And yes, forced celibacy has at times felt like it’ll give me a stroke, an aneurysm or push me off the deep end. It’s not healthy and I don’t like any part of it. I can and will gladly curb any lower vibrational habits, but healthy sexual release every so often is much rather preferred. I’ve now put together multiple month long stretches, and a near three month stretch of sexual abstinence. The pros were the extreme concentration and motivation. But without having or knowing a reason for, it just felt like forced punishment.