To be honest, it’s not the higher difficulty itself, it’s the winning that’s soothing.
Some people don’t like playing for the score.
But if I worked all day and I’m tense, I put my headphone loud, the building collapsing, the heavy machine gunning, bombs, grenades and screams of the soldiers are so soothing. It’s like hypnosis. The chaos of it all.
It feels out of control and at the same time you’re in full control.
Battlefield 128 players, full servers on weekends in hardcore mode. Pretty much bullying the other players and becoming best player over and over. Highest kills, little deaths.
It’s like being a performer giving people a good show lol
It’s not people’s fault if you’ve been playing these games for 15 years lol
It’s like Hitman, Gears of war, Soul Calibur, NBA 2k. Games I’ve played since a teenager. My hands and my eyes know the games by heart. I can tap into the games.
It’s like being able to read the future and other players mind at the same time.
After 2 hours it feels like a massage for the mind and body. I don’t know exactly who will be there, random strangers from around the world, 120 of them but I’m going to log in and as if guided by fate, I will win or at least be in the top 3 and then I will quit the game.
To be able to think, I don’t know who I’ll be playing against, but I’ll most likely win. It’s such a powerful feeling lol. Even if it’s just a game. It’s not blind arrogance, you’ve played for years the result is usually the same.
And sometime another player will give you a hard time and it will be a nice surprise for a face off