i have a new found appreciation for the non-dualistic approach.
i loop this with ego dissolution and crucible.
it feels like yin and yang.
i go through my ‘suffering’ in a more graceful and appreciative way. i’m sure others would probably see it as masochistic lol.
but now that i accept my ‘suffering’, it feels like i have more access to my peace and joy.
i think @SammyG describes this the best for me:
there was a point where i had no interest in my hobbies and there was no one to talk to because everyone was unavailable. at that point i just meditated and emotionally felt better and calmer. my energy started to feel like cool flowing water inside of me.
the deeper i went into meditation, the more friends i was attracting to message me.