In the past, I was seeking many things.
I wanted to understand the universe. So I spent all my free time looking into physics, cosmology, philosophy, and theology and then all of the math, logic, and jargon that goes into understanding those disciplines. I’ve looked at many different angles and many different extremes. In terms of an abstract perspective, I like Chris Langan’s CTMU. But that is entirely abstract and doesn’t speak to every detail that I’d want to consider. In terms of a physical perspective, I like the Aether theories since they line up (basically) directly with the ancient descriptions of energy and the elements.
I wanted to understand spirituality–specifically meditation and how to get to the heights of spirituality. This brought me to a range of traditions—from traditions in India to traditions in China, and to a more in-depth examination of Christianity in the West. I’ve spent a decade obsessing over this and now I no longer actively seek. In most cases, the written word is very limited in what it can do for you. However, it seems that, once enough effort has been expended, spirits will acknowledge your merit and give you insight.
So I don’t necessarily seek much any more. I feel like the biggest things have been squared away. I hope for sustainable and gainful employment, a good place to live, and the ability to use the knowledge that I have gained. --For this, I have the Peach Springs NFT and a few other tools
But one of the things that I have learned from all of my seeking is that I understand most things empathically. Even academic things, I don’t surgically dissect them from the outside. I tend to dive into them and make sense of things from the inside-out. I would seek/hope to explore that more in depth–and it could be helped along if the psychic empathy NFT is able to be made.
I am in a better place than 5 years ago. College payments are done and (with the pandemic stimulus) my car loan is gone too. And with some of the NFTs, I have shields against things that would have been too much to take in the past.
My overall goal would be to reach Xiān-hood. Taoist Immortality. I don’t know fully what it entails. All I know is that my life loses meaning when I move further away from the meditation practice. The meditation and the end goal are One. And I have been connected to it since before I knew what it was.