@SovereignSubliminals
So I’ve thought about this topic again for an hour tonight (after looping trauma release). The truth in my opinion is that the concept that we think of as ‘friendship’ isn’t the norm. It’s a fairytale.
What society has conditioned us to refer to ‘friends’ are merely alliances that grant you a mutual benefit. It’s why most people only stay ‘friends’ for as long as you are needed or are around them. I have personally experienced this with moving towns and countries. The ‘friends’ there, simply forget you. It’s harsh but I’m afraid it is the truth buddy. We seem to be in the minority (those of us who think of friendship as unconditional love towards another person).
In my experience, the only people who will ever love you, are your parents (if you are lucky enough to have good responsible ones). The rest are a toxic fake bunch who will take advantage of your good heart and dispose of you. Unfortunately the nature of humanity has become more apparent with me working in a sector that is supposed to help humans (healthcare). Ironic isn’t it? Humans are disgusting.
There is no shortcut to loving yourself. The sooner you learn to do that, the better. I will carry on offering my friendship to people who come my way, in case I come across the rare people (like you and me) who do value such connections. But like I said, it’s best to learn to love yourself and build a stronger bond with your parents to stay sane.
Edit: I apologise for the somewhat emotive language. This was right before I burst into tears for the first time in 7 years (haven’t cried since I was 15). It seems the trauma release had brought out long suppressed feelings of anger and hatred towards a lot of people who I feel have wronged me/let me down. Although I still maintain that there is truth in what I said.
Having said that, I am hopeful that there are more of us out there who truly believe in the fairytale ideal of friendship. So err yeah.
