I wonder if anyone has felt like that and if anyone can guide me into what I should be concentrating on to fix this. My issue is, I always hold back and don’t feel positive emotions till the end because I feel like I might explode. It’s been like this for a very long time and I’ve gotten more aware since I tried to do visualization meditations and found that I absolutely can’t feel any kind of emotion even when visualizing the most profound things for myself 
Last time, on a holiday, when friends wished me sincere things I almost wanted to cry because reading those were a chore for me. I sat down and read 2 friends’ sincere wishes in a row, let it sink in and had severe headache later. It’s whether headache or anxiety usually… So I had to respond to each one one message at a time 
(once in 2 days). That really influences my life because at the end, I will isolate myself from everyone no matter what happens, I know that even before getting close to someone.
Thank you 
Yes. Its indeed been weird and anxious energy. Lot of planets occupying 12th house and some about to enter. Thats where the anxiety comes from.
Hang in there. At least until june. Thats where its feel more grounded.
Trust me… after shani enter 12th house exactly conjunt with rahu same degree. Lot of shit happening. So that march to may. Its extremely very difficult situation. Just be prepared. Lot of relaxation needed. Especially aroun spine. And pelvic. That will help a lot to calm down the energy of saturn being in 12th house.
I have no idea what’s going on but I love you💙
Well Imogen she said that this is a problem she has had for some time let’s not forgot there’s other things at play here.
Focus on your heart chakra this is your issue mostly, also during childhood most our issues come from here.
Childhood Revision and PM me if you’re interested in more.
Thats true. My apologies.
But one thing I want for everyone to know. And where to focus on during this crucial points.
Is around spine. So the best thing to work is also around sacral charka and root charka.
Interesting, I had a very vivid sight of ‘spine’ before hopping here. If one doesn’t have any planet in the 12th house in the natal chart, is one still affected?
I used to be the same about not feeling much positive emotions (not the exploding part tho). I had an avoidant attachment style for a very long time which stemmed from childhood.
I used Core Transformation by Connierae Andreas to resolve this.
If you want to use fields, focus on trauma and revision fields. From my experience, the reason why I didn’t feel much positive emotions was bc there were “parts of me” wanting safety or wanting to keep me safe. As a result, it made me avoid people and not feel much in general.
But now it’s different. When visualizing, I can more easily feel the positive emotions and I make friends with ease.
Yes its as general energy that will affect it. But on subtle energy. But people will feel a lot heavier around that region of body. Legs too. It depends on individual chart but rahu will have big impact on that transit. At least march to may. Rahu is like amplifier. It amplified everything he sees. So it will be very intense. But it will slowly fades away
Awesome, thank you for sharing knowledge!
Thank you for sharing your knowledge:)
But yeah, I’ve been like that for a long time so it’s not really the case
Thanks a lot!
Thank you, that’s very sweet of you Love you too 
And no worries, overall I’m very good, it’s just an issue I’m aware of now and gonna fix of course x)
Yes, yes, It think that’s the issue… Each time, before I even allow my heart chakra to get activated my eyeballs get activated 
What would be the most effective way to approach it?
Yeah I’ll pm you, thank you
Yes, I’m using them right now, actually on stage 2 of JAAJ’s self love stack.
I just wanna approach it mindfully, nothing seems to change for me unless I actually realise what is what…
Thanks a lot for the recommendation! I will check it, hopefully it’s free
Hmm, I see. But it’s an obvious part here… What’s not obvious is that safe from what?
I’m actually starting to realise what might be my case as I’m writing this.
In my family, women are very very very very emotional and self-sacrificing. And they feel sorry for everything and everyone left and right. If you encounter a sad person or a person with problems and don’t feel sorry for them - you’re a bad person. Additionally, they watch negative news and cry a lot. I always wonder where they got the energy from because I’ve read news a couple of times and felt sick for a whole day. Also, since childhood I never cared much. I actually didn’t. And in the family of very very emotional and self-sacrificing people I have been shamed I don’t even remember for how many times. I can’t say it was all wrong, I did learn to “care more” and “take action” when someone feels off but I literally make it come out of me. They push me to feel sorry for things so many times that when it comes to times when I’m actually sorry for someone I refuse to show empathy because “I already show too much”…
I do have to acknowledge though, that, apparently, I didn’t care in times when normal people would (since childhood).
Yeah, that might be part of it
I already feel better wow haha
I think you might have found the cause there all by yourself above.
If it’s like you said, when you watch news to feel sorry for others in such an enforced way, that will lock in a deep sense of guilt over time. Whether this guilt is actually there or not is irrelevant, but this behaviour perpetuates it. Because this is not a genuine feeling of “sorry” but more like a “I have to feel sorry, because… (For example, others have it worse)”. That’s nowhere near sincere empathy.
Yeah.
I mean think about this objectively.
How does this make any sense?
Judgment by not voluntarily feeling bad?
As mentioned, this will inflict guilt and shame. These are very tricky emotions to deal with later on. On top of that, a person feeling guilt and shame excessively - that neither helps the person or the one they’re sorry for.
I feel like @JAAJ can explain this well, so I will tag him here.
So you not caring very much in your childhood is actually a natural reaction to these patterns - to balance them out.
It’s good to write things out.
Regarding your situation, it seems due to all of the above, when you want to feel positive emotions, your inner voice tells you that you may not feel those because of all the guilt.
I would like to tell you that you are free to feel those emotions and that your heart and soul yearn to feel them.
I don’t know if it’s possible - do you have a way to come out of this environment? I feel a change of environment may be beneficial in this case.
Aside from that I recommend:
- unconditional love infusion
- higher being experience
- the grace of angels and saints
Here’s a link to their updated “micro book”:
https://www.andreasnlp.com/store/micro-book/change-without-struggle/
Their older book on Amazon is still well worth it.
They have a foundational training (mostly covers the older book) and advance training that are a few hundred usd each.
Might be worthwhile to hire a Core Transformation therapist (not me) in your country or timezone. They have a list of trainers in their website.
what if saturn (neutral) is one’s ruling planet + (exalted mercury) and one’s finishing the rahu phase of life? i’m also finishing some dasha cycles and entering penoti phase in the year 2028 if i’m correct. seems like a lot has been going on since the last 7 years and regarding health it doesn’t get much better. interactions with the outside world has become unbearable. it feels i’ve become a like channel for the divine but lots of non nurturing energies sticking to me and it keeps adding up.
Whats the previous dasha? And what’s your ascendant
Im so confused. Are you saying you already finished rahu dasha?
If you about to enter new dasha then if the ruling planet is good to your acendant. Its going to be good. The aspect need to be examined tbh but if ascendant itself is good toward the ruling mahadasha lord. And has no aspect of malefic. And that one particular bhava lord also place well. And strong. It can be a good peroid.
it seems i’m in KETU Mahadasha Phal (January 24, 2019 - January 24, 2026)
i was born in 1974 and virgo in western astrology. ascendant - aquarius. moon sign - pisces
Sadesati Report
- 18 Sade Sati Aq January 18,2023 - March 29,2025 Peak
- 19 Sade Sati Pi March 30,2025 - June 02,2027 Setting
- 20 Sade Sati Pi October 20,2027 - February 23,2028 Setting
- 21 Small Panoti Ta August 08,2029 - October 05,2029
- 22 Small Panoti Ta April 17,2030 - May 30,2032
- 23 Small Panoti Vi October 23,2038 - April 05,2039
- 24 Small Panoti Vi July 13,2039 - January 27,2041
- 25 Small Panoti Vi February 06,2041 - September 25,2041
according to astrosage my ascendant is capricorn
No never use western side with vedic astrology. It will not match
And the small panoti. You shouldn’t be too concerned avout it.
Is this moon sign in western or vedic?
If the moon is in Pisces then youre under peak phase of sade sati. On march. But then that sade sati
Yea during this transit of saturn is going to be hella hard on you!
Where is saturn place by house?
Also sade sati is not easy. Doesnt matter how well your moon is placed. When saturn exactly conjunt with your moon sign. It’s going to be tough. Even if there is good aspects. It still going to be tough.
Yes
To be honest, since yesterday, I’ve been feeling extreme anger for everything. Family members were confused lol. It’s a bit funny to see that I’m being angry NOW when it happened such a long time ago and they’re confused on how to react Imagine someone coming up and saying:"Remember you said THIS to me? Yeah, it was traumatic! Apologise, now!"
(No family members were hurt during my healing process)
It really is.
Thank you 
No, I can’t. Actually I was away for a long time and it was the same anyway. But it’s fine, It can be healed regardless I suppose
I tried listening to love fields and yes, they were extremely overwhelming for me. I concluded that maybe my higher self was telling me to concentrate on work back then Now I understand it wasn’t telling me such a thing
Now that I know that, I will be listening to love fields for a minute or so, prolonging it later.
And thank you for other suggestions as well! 
Thank you so much, for the links and all the info :)
Thank you, Owl
Already listening to it (it’s in the self - love stack)