Everyone goes through things in life that are inexplicable, and might lead them to the conclusion that the psychic path would reveal more. I agree that a spiritual path might be what you are looking for, but that path is not necessarily a psychic one. In the old teaching I followed, the 1st ray was where everything started - the will of the infinite, protection. Our Captain has many fields that are protective, but remember that fields are also interactive. If, for example, you chose to print out and wear the mandala of St. Michael, you could also meditate upon his “job” = being the protector, and ask him to instruct you on the best way to protect yourself, and to reveal more about your inner workings.
Sapienmed has many fields for protection, including an upcoming public project, Shielding Protection 3. Searching the forum will bring up suggestions and discussions that might lead to more insight and questions.