i didn’t make up that scenario…it’s what happened to me as a naiive peaceful with all, loving, innocent kid in middle school…
i would get robbed…people threatened to stab me with a pencil to take my money while in line to get some food…
the thing is, i probably would have given him the money he stole from me if he asked me…
not everyone was like that…others were peaceful with me…its just there are some that prey on the weak…and the peaceful with all and loving person is weak to them…
eventually people stopped messing with me when i refused to get robbed one day…i pushed them back…a short little kid pushing back a kid way taller than me and way bigger…i was expecting to get beat up…
and in that school, the fear wasn’t so much getting beaten up by one person…it was getting beat up by the whole crowd maybe 20 people…stuff like that actually happened probably every week in that school…
the daily goal was to not get jumped…and you had to push people back to draw a line of respect otherwise you will continually get robbed…i got tired of getting robbed so i pushed back expecting to get beat up…but instead, i got respect…i had to kick him in the knee to get it though lol…
and i was a peaceful loving innocent little kid back then, i didn’t want to do that…but i got tired of being robbed…and it kept others at bay…but it wasn’t over after that…i had to continuously push back…i rarely fought…most times i just had to push back…and they respected the boundary i made for myself…
no need to go anywhere because i already live in the city and tested it already…i maintained my safety by certain ways of carrying myself…respectful and kind to most, but also putting up a fierce barrier of respect just in case people want to cross the line…similar to why dream created a light servitor and dark servitor…
but Angels protected me and continue to protect me…there were many close calls…but nothing is guaranteed…and living in the city, it’s an attitude that most carry, that not everyday is promised…good people get killed by stray bullets sometimes…one of my classmates in 6th grade got shot walking home from school one day…he survived because no major organs got hit…and he was a peaceful funny kid walking home where gangsters decided to shoot at each other not caring about innocent bystandards…he was blessed to survive, but some weren’t so blessed…
also, happened to a lady i worked with…she was just at work as a meter reader doing her job and got caught in a drive by…and she was quick to get back to work because she was more concerned of not losing her job than surviving lol…she woulda got fired too…
one job i had, this kid got fired because he didn’t show up to work one day when his friend got killed…it’s ruthless in the city lol
there’s countless stories like that of good people in the city…
and i’m not using this as an excuse to continue to keep that rigid barrier up…people that know me know that i have a big heart…generous and kind to everyone i know…it’s just a seatbelt type of characteristic to ones that maybe harmful, just like what dream’s dark servitor was used for…which i never used btw…i feel ArchAngel Michael can take care of all that lol
i appreciate your words though…it really is that easy to lose everything in this matrix…and i’m going to continue to keep improving and healing…that’s why i’m here to keep learning from all of you…i’m grateful for all of you