Communication has never been a strong suit of this community, but I hope that’s gotten better and I’m sure there have been efforts to improve.
This is a community of outsiders, subject to the problems outsiders cause. Outsiders include all types of people, but almost all of us are outsiders because we’re not well-adjust to the world, for better or for worse.
There are also plenty of fanatics who make all kinds of claims, and to confuse those people with the main leadership is an issue. Sometimes, however, the leadership hasn’t helped themselves by seemingly aligning with these people, too.
Adding to this, it’s sometimes hard to know who is “in” and who is “out,” as much of this forum takes place, or had taken place, on the back channels of this site.
One day you login and it’s obvious something happened but no one will say anything about it, or it’ll be handwaved away. It’s confusing and quickly becomes not worth your time. This kind of behavior then calls into question much of the info that is given on the forum, tainting some of it that can’t really be verified elsewhere.
If I came here as a teenager or maybe even in my early, early 20s, I might have gotten a little lost.
I wouldn’t call all of this a waste of time. The fields do work, but what’s more important and has always been more important is you.
The fields are tools. I don’t recall Sammy ever saying listening to fields is all you need to do. They are supplements to mental, physical and spiritual practices (huge emphasis on practice) and with that in mind they have helped me immensely.
If I just relied on fields to do the work for me, I would have been very disappointed. However, I can understand where some people got that idea because I think some of the fields and the requests of the community went too far and removed some of the necessary effort. My opinion, obviously.
There are also plenty who went overboard and basically made a religion out of field worship, buying every new field, making claims, and almost never backing it up.
You will find that any community you join will have a very similar percentage of absolute fanatics who will deify the main figures, never question anything, and will inevitably either follow the pied-piper off the cliff, if it comes to that, or will splinter-away and claim that the whole thing was a huge waste of time, evil, a scam, etc, etc, etc. It all comes from an internal lacking, placing others on pedestals and asking them to do everything for them, giving up their will and agency for whatever salvation is being given and/or sold. It’s not always the fault of the leaders that these things happen, but sometimes things just spin out of control too fast and what was originally intended gets all warped and misshapen in the funhouse mirror of reality, or better put, our own minds and perceptions. It’s just how it is. Will probably never change as long as the world turns.
Let this be a lesson for the communities you join in the future, of who to watch out for, who not to trust, who can be trusted, and who is worthy of your time. It is your choice how you choose to spend the time you’re allotted, and if you feel like it has been wasted, well, waste no more!
I still don’t like how the end of last year was handled, but I understand Dream left Sammy out to dry, and he had to pivot on the spot to navigate the mess that was left, which leads to rash decision-making which causes basically unavoidable mistakes. I still don’t know the full story and I don’t care to, but I still am appreciative of so many of the fields, many of them freely given, or basically free, that have helped me heal myself, others, and provided new avenues and perspectives on everything. I think the original vision and intent of this Sapien Medicine quickly got outgrown and Dream found himself in over his head, as I don’t think it was ever supposed to get as big as it was. Glad he can do what he wants now and hopefully lessons were learned and progress made.
I’m also kind of “done,” but not with the fields necessarily, or even the forum, perhaps. For a while now I’ve been moving on with things, getting off of the internet in general, and not like I was ever a huge part of this community, but hopefully I was around enough to help someone who needed it. I’m still in favor of letting the forum go and die as I think its purpose has been served. I’ve been apart of other places over the years and the one common element they have is they all die, as everything does. You’re there when the magic happens, it reaches a high-point, and then slowly, gently levels-off and eventually becomes something else or nothing at all. Appreciate things while they happen and be ready to let them go as soon as it is time. The worst thing you can do is hang on for too long.
We all make mistakes, we all take wrong turns from time to time, and we all live in a place that can appropriately be called hell more often than not. Fields, Dreamweaver, Sammy and many of the posters here have helped me further smooth-out and better navigate this ride, and for that I am grateful.
The wheels finally came off of this particular Sapien Medicine ride sometime last year, and while it has changed, it will never be what it was before as nothing can truly be. It has to change, and more importantly YOU have to change. Everything will be what it is, and wishing it was something else is folly. Make the best of what you have and what is given.
I have so many things left to explore, fields included, lifetimes worth, naturally you let things go that really aren’t adding anything to your life. We all outgrow our former selves, and that’s a great sign of progress made. Stagnant things die, so you must always keep moving.
And just to further emphasize my point, fields cannot be the foundation of your life. They are supplemental and transformative, but make sure not to make it the only thing you do, as that will almost guarantee disappointment.
As always, grateful for what has been given, always appreciative and very thankful.