Hi there,
First of all congratulations on your being brave to open up despite you finding it difficult. It’s s great first step.
You carry quite a lot of baggage, like many others too. In your case it manifests in relationships.
In essence you need to reinforce the forgotten belief that you are a loving human being and thus able to be loved in return.
That being said, you are required to overcome your personal traumas and rediscover self confidence. There are actually countless fields to aid you with this, so it’s not that easy to construct a perfect playlist.
Also don’t worry at first if you can’t make it perfect, just by the fact of using the fields you make progress.
The very least you will require the point of no return playlist, which includes forgiveness, trauma- and depression relief. You probably need the PTSD, vibration of divine love and the self-worth field. There are others, for instance you mentioned emotional release, that really helps to keep motivated when days are difficult.
Your mindset is of utmost importance. You need to be persistent but at the same time gentle with yourself. Patient yet not lazy.
I think you already read a lot here so you will have an idea what to listen to. You will progress by listening to your intuition, it is guaranteed.
Eventually you’ll figure out which fields you need and when you don’t need them anymore and only for maintenance. It’s a very dynamic process and should be treated like a journey.
I hope you overcome every obstacle