Some other thoughts about your post:
You never really filled this in. You went right into what you were doing, without telling us what your goals are and how you’ll know if you’re achieving your goals, how you’ll know if your fields are working. (This is why, at first, I only addressed that one part of your post.)
What are you doing to heal these? Because these’ll impact a whole range of your experiences (including probably your test production and the other things you may be looking at). Fortunately, Sapien has a wide variety of fields for these types of issues. So, continue to do your research on this forum (including the Official Sapienmed FAQ (Updated), How to Create Great Stacks and the Ultimate List of Morphic Field Stacks).
Don’t feel bad. Most people have some of that going on for them. Look for our discussions about the Point of No Return (PONR) stacks and field. (The search tool–that magnifying glass icon in the upper right corner of every page of this forum–will help you find those.) Those discussions will help you clarify your own goals and help you to set your priorities.
That’s great. You can also listen to them without headphones, too. Whatever works for you.
You might also be interested in this thread: How to Better Connect with Servitors/Audios/Items/Mandalas.
Have fun!