Thank you!
Lots of school works put me under a lot of stress. But, after I finished it all, the boredom of doing nothing makes me depressed.
Itās like Iām missing the stress and the pressure that came from doing lots of work. Iām also addicted at bullet chess (1+0 or less). Itās like Iām addicted to time pressure but I donāt like it at all, but doing nothing feels miserable either. Pick your poison.
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This Grace-Light isnāt non-duality. It is a distinct thing?
Itās pure awareness - when nothingness becomes aware of itself.
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Itās not even a specific thing - Grace Light is a process in of itself that encompasses three components.
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What is acting as an object and a subject of awareness if there is nothing to reference either?
There is not a mention of it in the website I foundā¦guess I have to dig deeper.
Welp I tried but I canāt put my thoughts in order, let alone into words now u.u
I felt an interest in Awareness Watching Awarenessā¦like 2 days after Iāve done this mantra. But I also used SZ field and a non-duality emanation thingy.
Andā¦yeah I became aware SZ released this just the next day after I did the mantra (I donāt usually do itā¦was in trance, trying to remember every mantra I know and doing some repetitions of every hyper-high-vibes one)ā¦and here I am now.
So, I was going to drop everything for pure awareness (which I know in practice, I canāt do xD), and you tell me this mantra is for pure awarenessā¦
God aināt even amused while Iām a jokeā¦
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That only comes into existence after nothingness becomes aware of itself - before that, there is nothing.
It is the alpha and the omega.
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Well Iāve experienced consciousness with no subject. For an instantā¦then when that awareness happens, a moment later comes an Iā¦and trips nuts and panics because compared to infinity (what you were aware of for a moment) it is non-existent so it clings to life.
And this was just a mental orgasm xDā¦so I can only imagine how deep it goes. At leat, before the fall, the infinity I experienced was pleasure.
Intellectualizing this simply wonāt work, as it is a realization which equates to omniscience, omnipotence and omnipresence.
What use is intellect from that stage?
Why a starting point? Has it ever became? Is there time? Why has it not always been aware of itself?
Nothingness is always becoming aware of itself.
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Why not already fully aware forever?
It is. You just donāt understand what āNowā actually means.
Do you?
Lol.
Come on
Iāll leave things as is. I am not a guru. Whatever you do with this, wherever you go with it, is on you.
If you want someone else to spoon-feed you gnosis, join a religion or a political party - leave me out of it.
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